so many things i'd like to say.
but i might never.
i'll be away.
maybe it's better this way.





unfinished.

it's unofficially official.
damn.
precisely so.
i shouldn't act as if it's officially official.
:(

i should try to stay alive.
i should try to stay sane.




SAVE ME!!!!!!

i like the coolness of the night.

i think i know why ppl love dramas.
esp korean dramas.
cos ppl in there hardly exist in reality, unfortunately.
or maybe situations in there don't happen.
how often do you see a guy possessing all the qualities that girls want?
to make it even more incredible
how often do you see such a guy falling for a simple jane?
or maybe
how often do you see a scene in a drama playing on repeat in reality?
or when there's always a 'sort of' happy ending
be it whether characters always end up in pairs
or they end up dying (in a romantically sad way)
that's probably why ppl watch dramas.
they don't tell the same mundane story we hear each day
they don't show the same simple ppl we meet each day.
they show precisely what we lack in reality.
we might already know the ending by merely watching the trailer.
occassionally criticising the uncreative storylines.
(like duh, the rich guy would definitely end up with that girl)
but we watch it anyway, don't we?
unfortunately, we watch it due to the lack of it.
like a form of escape from reality.
taking frequent peeks into the world that seems so much like ours.
but then again, not quite similar.
alright, enough bout my huge theory on dramas.
it's merely serving as a justification to watch them.
obviously cos i haven't been a model mugger these 2 days.
(we all need excuses, don't we? :P)



SOMEONE PLEASE REMIND ME BOUT MY BIG DAYS!!!!
i totally need it.

time: 2am.

high on tea.
with caffeine, amphetamines shouldn't exist.
:D




damn.
it's just the lesser evil.

i'll learn to cope with it.
i hope.

yesterday was a horrible day.
had a whole roller coaster of emotions.
actually it was just me being me.
fortunately, or unfortunately.
but it was nice when my dad came to pick me up.
cos it made me feel a whole load better.
i think i'll ocassionally suffer from a 'kid attack'.
like a sudden mentality regression to that of a kid.
childish, illogical, crappy, lamely unreasonable.
i might have even been less child-like when i was a real child.
no.
maybe i was worse.
just that i didn't realise it.
well there's improvement right?
at least there's greater depth of reflection now :)

i've got to constantly remind myself that MY BIG DAYS are coming.
not my birthday.
not my wedding.
not my 80th birthday.
they aren't exactly enjoyable.
but nonetheless important.
actually, God won't stop loving me even if i don't do well.
neither would my parents.
neither would my brother.
neither would my grandma (she'll probably ask me to get married)
but in the end, that's not the point.
we don't do things just cos we were asked us to.
neither do we do it cos everyone else is doing it.
there's got to be a reason, right?!



while i do not doubt the perfection of the potter's hands
i'd like to make myself good clay.
okay shandy.
good clay don't blog bout being good clay :P

occasionally, i'll appreciate the stillness of the night :)


tired legs;
blistered feet;
sore back;
but a whole load of satisfaction.
after a million days of incarceration (both mentally and physically)
i finally broke free.
3 days of craze.
and i'm glad i didn't hold back.
shopping had never felt so good in such a long time.
no regrets. at all.
one week later i might think i won't wear the skirt i bought today.
but so? no regrets. (okay la maybe got opp cost)
retail therapy is probably the best cure for any damage inflicted by mugging.
saturday was probably the best.
out with the right person
at the right places
doing the right things
eating the right food
except maybe the weather was super hot.
it's nice to do things on impulse sometimes.
we went from little india to clarke quay, and then town.
all in the name of shopping
followed by a girlish sleepover.
today wasn't that bad either.
the feeling of walking around with many bags was great.
the bags could be thrice the weight of my school file.
but i wouldn't complain at all.
and i wouldn't mind the weight to further double :D



walking down the bustling streets.
with that gentle sunshine and breeze
and buskers setting the mood of the late afternoon.
this is life.

don't feel like studying.
don't feel like studying.
don't feel like studying.
don't feel like studying.
don't feel like studying.
looking at a stack of notes written in greek.
feeling lethargic.
wondering why you are doing this.
ah. actually you know why.
you just find the reason hard to swallow.

i said 1pm.
then i'll be off doing bio.
when it was 1pm, i said 1.30.
cos the batsu gameshow on youtube was rather amusing.
at 1.30, i caught myself blogging.
then i said 2.
let's hope it stops there.
OKAY I'M DETERMINED TO DO BIO NOW!!!!!!
:/

behold, behold, the might and power of temptation!!
i should be doing stats now.
like frantically mugging stats.
neo wrote a huge 'STUDY!!!!' on my mock paper he marked.
obviously cos the grade wasn't spectacular.
chem paper 3 today.
SHANDY WAS BORN BLIND!!!
i actually missed out questions AGAIN.
slap me. stab me.
oh wells.
and to make it worse
huixian told me just this morning to OPEN MY EYES when i do the paper.
probably my ears weren't open when she said that.
:(!!!!!
by the way, there's a part II of 'what if i died tmr?'
i told my dad the sad story of mugging too much but dying tmr.
then he said, "but you see, what if you don't die tmr?"
ah okay.
GOT IT. GOT IT.
FINE. i'm off to do stats.
just in case i don't die tmr.

met up with steph today for lunch!
she hasn't changed much.
just became slightly more 'liberal' under 'western influence'.
sexy hot babe.
HAHA.
talked bout life, which obviously was tied very strongly to school and studying.
then i started to wonder.
after 12 years of mugging my butt off (okay not 12. maybe 8)
what if i died tmr? (hypothetical la. i'm not being suicidal)
then i guess it would be quite sad.
but i don't think that can serve as a proper excuse to not study.
imagine if i told my mom that.
she won't wait for a truck to hit me tmr.
she'll kill me rightaway.
haha.
alright. back to the 'hot seat'!
determined to finish probability by tonight!!!
OR DON'T YOU DARE SLEEP, SHANDY!!!
:P





for i know who holds tmr
and i know who holds my hand :D

blogger is being weird.
but i shall attempt to blog.
if you see this, means i've succeeded :D
haven't been on task at all.
i thought i'd prefer mugging chem 10 times more than bio and econs.
i take that back.
okay no, i'll reduce it to 2 times.
chem still beats econs.
HANDS DOWN.
but i can't say that for sure when i can't even do an idiotic kinetics question.
in such a situation, it's worrying to say chem beats econs.
imagine what a dire state my econs would be in.
loads and loads of things to do.
but minimal motivation to do it.
and distractions come like a tsunami.
actually, they've always been there.
this time, my mind chose to recognize them as distractions.
and accompanying it would be a physical response to such distractions:
to allow myself to be distracted.
an obvious example would be now :P
woeful, woeful!
i've fail to keep my mugging bubble from bursting.




okay shandy.
stop lamenting.
get your butt back to your study table.

it's scary how sometimes you don't realize it.
but when you do, you'd rather you didn't.

expectations.
how unreasonable of me.

it's my 400th post.
amazing.
never knew i had so much crap to write.
maybe having a long post history is good.
cos it allows me to look back
with most posts leave me laughing at how dumb and lame i was.
oh wells.
i don't feel like carrying on this post.
not in a mood to blog.
but i did anyway.






the cresent moon tonight looked really pretty
a pity the clouds gave it little chance to shine.

when i was younger,
i could throw tantrums for no good reason
i could do something wrong and not face its true consequences
i could be unreasonable and blame others
i could be selfish and not share my things
i could be ignorant and not get laughed at
i could express my thoughts and feelings freely
i could cry over stupid things but there would still be ppl comforting me
i could just go with the flow and not have a mind of my own
it was like a right.
but it all seems as though i've become a lower being,
now that i've lost this right.






lamentations.

a superbly eventful saturday.
exco meeting in the late morning.
volunteers' appreciation in the afternoon.
dinner with joy in the evening.
okay the last one was the best :D
joy brought me to a flea market today.
amazing.
just that my feet hurt super alot.
joy was totally uncontrollable.
she was almost determined to buy enough to set up her own booth.
(not like she doesn't already!)
until she realised it and said i was too encouraging.
so i switched to the 'dissuading' mode.
but she continued her crazy shopping spree.
i guess the problem didn't lie with the shopping partner.
it was the shopper herself.
but undeniably, there were a whole load of pretty and cute stuffs there.
i saw this perfectly pretty pocket-watch necklace.
but i saw it only when the person beside me was cashing it.
and things sold at flea markets are usually unique.
that lady took the only piece la!!!!!
wah i want to cry!!!
i feel so blind!!!!
$%#&!$#&!$#*!!!!!!
oh wells.
not meant to be.
okay it's not as if i didn't buy anything i was satisfied with.
fine.
FINE.
FINE!!!!!!
i'll open my eyes bigger next time.
next flea market, here i come!
i'm determined not to let myself down like that again!
:D






stop calling me weird.
only i deserve the right to say that to myself.


occassionally, i find myself doing things i know i shouldn't do.
or having thoughts that i know that will just stay as thoughts.
it's more tragic to realize it than to not.
because it just makes me mock my foolishness.
to think logically is an issue
and to act logically is another.
but the most illogical
would be to think logically but not act in accordance.




oh whatever shandy.
since when have you not been weird?

it'll take me a really long while to adapt to the normal timetable again.
i'm suffering from the withdrawal symptoms of holidays.
it's an uphill task to keep awake during lectures.
today's econs lecture was a perfect cure for insomnia.
but the lecturer was super nice!!!
anyway that's not the point.
i dread the start of lessons.
cos they are an indication of the nearing A levels.
and all those career fairs and talks serve more to pressurize than anything else.
i'm super sleepy!!
i can't think!!! :(
sometimes, i'd rather not.

i'm out of my room, leaving the stack of chem notes on my desk.
i thought i needed that.
maybe distracted, or maybe just tired.
everything's floating in my head
GSS, dates with friends, movies etc
all the things i'd really love to do.
but obviously the things i won't be doing soon.
precisely why i think bout them right.
i'm secretly hoping there'll be an extra week of break.
you know, like in case any NJ kid would bring influenza A to school.
absolutely :D i hope VC figures that out.
but since i'm blogging openly bout it, i don't think it's a secret anymore.
in case school reopens without an extra week of break
i should just try to finish up, though it's quite a mission impossible.
think i should finish up on arenes.
it's waiting for me on my desk.
before guilt comes after me like a midnight monster.




my attempt to escape failed.
then i realised, it's not my battle to fight.
i'd surrender; i'd submit.

terrible, terrible, terrible!!!!
the life of mugging sucks.
esp when everything around attracts my attention
and my brain doesn't retain any information.
:(
currently, i think we only have the right to mug to death.
we have lost the rights to die via other means.
the most unfortunate.

went for LAP camp today.
probably the really last time i got to interact with the kids.
in truth, they were an uncontrollable bunch today.
but deep down, actually they aren't that bad.
they are, after all, kids.
weida was one kid that made me think alot today.
he's one 'outstanding' kid at LAP.
super huge attitude problem probably cos of complicated backgrounds.
today, again, he was the 'traid boss'
(actually just the one who always initiates all the mischief)
while playing games, he got really impatient and starting scolding ppl
he actually calls ppl 'noobshit', how advanced for his age!
i got really pissed and challenged him to a task of leading his team to complete the game.
just to complete it. even winning wasn't part of the deal.
amazingly, he did a brilliant job.
they didn't just complete the game.
they came in first!!
then it suddenly struck me that he may not be the most well behaved kid
neither is he academically inclined.
but surely he's got other talents.
hopefully he'll be able to use them well, and for the right purposes, in the future.
it makes me sad to see how the environment can affect someone
especially when one cannot choose the environment he's in.
and for weida, maybe his environment will disallow him to further develop his potential
or maybe his attitude will cause others to label him negatively.
hopefully, one day, he'll prove to be someone who's truly outstanding.
another kid that made me smile today was ridwan.
a small and scrawny malay boy.
thought he was p4, until he told me he was p6, or rather sec 1.
then i found out he retained in p6.
i was quite taken aback.
cos how many ppl actually do fail their PSLE?
or maybe how many ppl you know have failed their PSLE?
not trying to label him or something.
it's just something that doesn't seem 'in our world', our very sheltered world.
as i spoke to him and stuff, i didn't feel any sense of shame in him about retaining.
though he was super active and rowdy during the games
he sounded really serious when he told me bout it.
more importantly, he sounded hopeful, and that he was trying hard.
he was confident that he'll be able to pass this year.
or at least, get a better grade.
i bet the determination and resillience of this young boy can put many of us to shame.
he promised he'll tell me his grades at the end of the year.
hopefully, i'll be able to smile with him :)





LAP withdrawal symptoms :(

i've got less than half my essay done
and it's due tmr.
so i've got to rush it out, and specially deliver it to school tmr.
pissing.
and today was quite a suay-day for me.
i thought my tuition was at 7 so i rushed out of the house like mad.
then i realised it was at 7.30 (cos i forgot it got pushed back :P)
so i went galivanting at the mall nearby to waste time.
AND I MET A DAMN STALKER THERE.
(as in seriously, a stalker)
he followed me wherever i went la!!
it got extremely disturbing, especially when i was alone.
wah lao, sick person can.
eeeeewww.
good for MOH.
now they've got more business.
alright.
going to sleep now so i can wake up tmr to COMPLETE MY GP ESSAY.
:(

this has got to be one of my WORST holidays ever.
super sian.
super duper sian.
cos most of the time i just stay home and stare at my notes.
efficiency rate 0.0013%.
yup i go out some days too.
but the damn sucky thing bout it is the guilt that comes with going out.
it keeps running in my head, how i should be at home studying.
(as if i'll do alot of things at home)
then you tell yourself it's okay, there's still tmr.
but the next day is just no better.
either the brain malfunctions, or the computer/tv/bed proves to be too tempting.
worse still, sometimes i don't even waste my day indulging in them.
i just float around my house, or sit down and stone.
basically, just very good-for-nothing things i'll do.
damn i hate to admit it.
i think i redefine useless and lost in my own world.
forget it, i'll just continue residing in my lalaland till forever.
no shandy, you've got GP hw to do.
stay in your lalaland a second longer and the GP monster will eat you up.






i dreamt of khooweiwey and stephteja last night.
realised that i actually miss them quite a bit.
(but definitely not khooahma catching me for socks/eating in class/untidy hair)
:D
oh ya. i miss BBTing with ning in class too :(

yesterday was one crazy day of my pathetically mundane life.
so that's good.
at least it's keeping me alive :D
had stayover at joy's place last night.
super fun :)
went town to eat and shop
walked a super freaky route back to her place
sat in the middle of the road to camwhore at night
laid down on the grass to chat and stargaze
and of course our must-have screaming while watching horror films.
that was a short break from reality.
now that i'm back, facing piles and piles of notes
i hate reality even more.
oh wells.


shandy,
face it.

don't feel like moving,
don't feel like thinking,
as if i'm suffering from a brain death.
i think i have a headache.
no idea actually.
i don't know what's wrong.
:(



complicated matters.
i believe they go far beyond rocket science and huge theories.
no rule book, no formula, probably even without logic.
it's little wonder why i can't understand it most of the time.
and sometimes when i get sick of thinking, i stop thinking.
quite convinced it isn't my game to play.
i might be contented with the role of a mere spectator.
at least it spares me all the trouble.

a moment ago i was flustered.
i couldn't find my transition metal notes.
almost went crazy.
i was sure it wasn't in the pile cos i packed my things today (miracle!)
after complaining and complaining and complaining to my brother
and saying how evil the person who took it might be
i found it in between my other non-h2 chem notes.

the moral of the story?
i don't know.
though my brother might say it's to not complain so much.



in solitude;

today was the last day of official LAP sessions for the J2s.
but it's not the end!
cos we've got one more june hols camp to plan for the kids!
i thought i'll find it a drag since it's super near CTs.
but i guess the thought of seeing them again made me very much more willing.
my darling keith didn't come today!! :(
only a handful of p5s came.
slightly disappointing.
but i hope they had fun.
cos it'll probably be the last of us they'll see during LAP!
out of fun and curiosity, i asked ming chong if he'll miss me.
surprisingly, he nodded his head :D
didn't quite expect it cos he's usually quite mischievous.
and he's not one of the kids i'm in charge of.
BUT HE NODDED HIS HEAD!!!
i melted.

the later part of the day was quite fun with sihui's company.
sat at the foodcourt like 2 aunties chatting.
and went to shop after that.
we talked quite a bit.
felt really nostalgic!!
cos it's been an extremely long time since we've talked so much.
but i didn't have my regular saturday afternoon nap.
so i'm really sleepy now.
off to bed!!!
:D



what i'll always miss.

shandy officially declares that she hates physics related stuffs.
things never did change.
i still detest physics.
since sec 3.
and now electrochem is giving me a huge headache.
i thought i bade physics goodbye!!!
until i met electrochem.
i can't see the link for nuts.
faraday's fault.
plainly because his name appears in a formula.
yes i'm being so super unreasonable.
oh too bad :D

i'm probably too tired for anything.

i hope you're alive and well.

all the crappy matters this week are killing me.
i realised if i get too pissed/anxious/sad
i'll drop a whole load of hair. BAD.
so let's hope i'll be a happy girl next week.
probably not, with all the tests and tutorials.
what a pity.
oh wells.
i wish i never grew up.
then again, 17 going on 18 isn't too old.
but it's starting to suck already.



if life could get less confusing.


going to school is like playing a game.
it's like trying to see how long you can last before you give up.
then doing tutorials is like playing a game of tag.
you find yourself chasing after your tutor.
when you've caught him, you find that he's chasing you now.
sounds fun.
but not when he's a million times faster than you.
so more than often, you're the one chasing him.
but sometimes you get too tired, you take a rest
cos you're just so damn sick of running after him.
then you realize he's far beyond sight already.
so maybe it's time to throw in the towel.
then again you hesitate.
cos that means losing 2 games just like that.
eh it's bullshit la.
if you're agreeing with what i said, taking it as a game
then you're still living in your own world
because in real life, you probably aren't allowed to lose.
they just keep torturing you till you come out wishing you were dead.
but the thing is, they make sure you don't die.
HAHA. okay that sounded sadistic.
ah i make school sound so morbid!!
okay okay it's not!!!!
it sucks most of the time, not all.
so there's still a glimmer of hope. haha.
oh wells.
i've been suffering from extremely bad headaches.
and i've got no idea why.
maybe that's the reason why i'm typing such a weird post now.
shandy.
go and sleep.
you'll feel more sane that way.


i just PMSed my mom.
oops.
okay fine. i was damn unreasonable.
but anyway, i got really super pissed and irritated over a small issue.
alright maybe not that small.
cos it irritated the crap out of me.
oh wells.
interact lasted till afternoon today.
but it was great to see all of them again, in a proper LAP session.
though one irritating boy came to tell me i was wearing a bra.
super embarrassing.
duh i was la.
anyway, we heard about the background of one of our notorious kid.
i used to think he was plain mischievous.
but i didn't really ask myself why.
till i heard his story, then i started to understand.
oh wells shandy, i can't believe you just PMSed your mom.
anyway, we'll be stepping down in may
though i always say i can't wait to step down
i'll really super extremely miss LAP :(
alright. off to try to clear hw.
these two days haven't been hw-friendly.
but at least i had fun :D


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i just found out that pw results are coming out tmr!!!!!
scream with me!!!!!!
like no one said anything!!!
my weak heart cannot take such stress.
SAVE ME!!!!
i might just faint on the spot tmr.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
as if all the anxiety isn't enough.
and why on earth didn't NJ mention anything?!?!!
like i just found out from my HC friend la!!!!!
oh wells.
:/

i'm tired.
haven't been sleeping alot these days.
:(
and today was BAD.
cos i had napfa in the morning and it's a damn tuesday.
hate tuesday's timetable.
but anyway!
i passed my napfa!!!
i did better than planned :D
though i'm really gonna suffer tmr from aches and stuffs.
premature aging. heh.
oh wells.
everyone around me are falling sick.
but just not me. WHY?!!!
and i've got no good reason to pon school
i should just give sheryl and zhix a kiss so that i'll get the bug.
haha.
today i was so sian till i had thoughts of skipping school.
oh wells shandy.
that's how you are.
queen of escapism.
FACE IT. LIFE SUCKS.
and the even sadder part is the fact that you can't do anything bout it.
wah cry!


sleep sleep sleep :D

i found myself playing that song on repeat.
as much as the voice and tune sounded so nice
it was the lyrics that made me play it again and again.
in some parts i saw myself, and in others i saw you.
so many times i found myself trying to hide
cos i just didn't dare face up to the truth.
so i acted this way.
my selfishness, my insenstivity, my lack of courage
and i don't care bout all those headaches i'm getting.
i'm more concerned with how you're feeling.

if i carry on being the weirdest, most hard to fathom person
i'll go crazy.
i guess i'm already on my way.
shandy, what on earth is wrong with you?!
no idea.
do you?



headaches, racing heartbeat and a churning stomach.

i guess i was being difficult.
i failed to understand
though i ought to know.
i'm sorry.
there was frustration.
cos you were like a stranger.
then i realised
you've got every reason to be a stranger.

finally home.
now i can do whatever i want, whenever i want :D
staying at hostel has made me appreciate what i have.
like...
my bed
my pillow
my room
my toilet
my breakfast
my hairdryer
...and to be continued
but now i'm plagued with the 'piling homework syndrome'
cos i haven't had time to do my work at hostel.
but im too tired so i might retire soon.
i forgot to announce to the whole wide world!!!
I PASSED MY 2.4!!!!!!
kenny was nice enough to run all 6 rounds with me :D
thanks kenny!! sheryl must be jealous.
and i guess that's the reason why i feel like dying now.
i predict i'll feel a hundred times worse tmr!
alright.
goodnight world.




i'd rather choose to ignore.
at least it'll make things a whole load simpler.
but.
yea, but.


i've packed.
but i don't feel like staying at the hostel now.
regretted the fact that i agreed to stay to host the cebu ppl.
now i feel like crying.
cos i've got a truckload of homework undone.
and another truckload of tests not studied for.
that's it shandy.
WHY YOU SO STUPID??!!!!!
i'd smack you really hard if it didn't hurt me to do so (literally)
and ahhhhhhhhh!!!!
as if staying away from home isn't bad enough
i've got to sleep with a stranger!!!!!!!
gasps!!
but anyway.
i thought it'll be good to stay there for 2 days.
so at least when i graduate
i can proudly proclaim that i've stayed in the nj hostel and it sucks.
that's one thing i'm super certain bout.





MY WOEFUL LIFE!

i'm trying really hard to retain my sanity.
actually it's not as if i've got much left.
and not like i'm really able to do anything bout it.
hence the 'trying'.
sometimes people tell you (or occassionally you tell yourself) that you can survive.
but it's easy to say that to someone else.
and if you say that to yourself you're being delusional.
i'm somewhere there already la huh.
school is indeed the place you laugh and cry.
cos sometimes life gets too sad you want to cry.
then you lose a little of your sanity.
and you start becoming like me.
typing lame stuff on your blog showing how insane you're becoming.
and soon, you find yourself laughing.
all the time.
for no good reason.
at every single thing.
cos you've finally lost your sanity
:D

i thought the march holidays would be a good time for rest.
like real.
slogged more than term time.
sucky school life.
and i'll be back to that grey prison in another 9 hours.
it's simply depressing.
interact hasn't been a breeze as well.
it's one of the rare occasions where studying seems better.
i'd seriously rather do homework.
truthfully, i can't wait to step down.
:(



shandy, embrace.

came back from interact camp today.
i slept for a long long long long time.
last night was BAD.
had to sleep on hard and narrow tables!!!!
my back totally died :(
i think i'm aging before my time!!
poor memory
backaches
skin problems
irritable
and sleepy!!
i recently developed rash patch on my cheeks.
i THOUGHT it'll go away.
until it started killing me during the camp.
so i got out of camp with ariele to see a doctor.
and we just slacked our afternoon away, enjoying nice laksa while others were toiling in school
OOPS :P
by the way, since the side gate was locked when we went out
and we were too lazy to walk by the main gate
we.... HAHA.
it was so unglam.
i was already on the top of the gate when a passerby walked past, staring at me
and all i could say was... OOPS.
though ariele found it super amusing.
and we went back for wet games.
i got a ugly slipper tan!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i hope it'll go away.
oh wells.
off to redeem myself by chionging holiday assignments!!!
i haven't done alot.
depressing! :(

i feel like the worst person on earth now.
i'm....
sorry.

it's getting complicated.

i haven't been posting anything for the past month.
each time i type something, i say 'never mind'.
the words all get deleted.
subsequently the thoughts are all lost too.
thoughtless.
yes, i've been somewhat thoughtless.
almost foolish.
having no idea what i'm doing each day.
i've lost track of time.
living weeks as if they were days.
though i always hope for them to pass
cos all the lectures, tutorials and tests seem far too heavy for me to savour.
but it's scary to see how the days are speeding past me
especially when i look back, very so often with a heavy heart.



where'd you go?

i hope nothing crops up after school tmr.
I WANT TO GO HOME EARLY!!!
to sleep of course :)
i have never once enjoyed a 12pm dismisal!!
today was yet another boring but depressing day
since we're all back in school on the 3rd day of chinese new year!
BAD.
wasted quite a lot of time after econs lecture today.
but the highlight of the day was interact's visit to st. joseph's home :D
we brought lots of donation, courteosy of the interactors.
though it didn't turn out as good as expected.
many of the old folks weren't very responsive
but there was this cheery old uncle singing 'you are my sunshine' (very loudly)
i tried interacting with this old lady who wouldn't talk.
all she did was bite her pillows and clothes.
and she was super skinny.
quite a sad sight though.
then i went on to talk to a slightly more responsive ah ma.
she only spoke cantonese!!
obviously i'm an idiot at cantonese.
so i tried to squeeze out all the cantonese i remember from my grandma.
but ya. i doubt that old ah ma understood me fully.
duh, i didn't understand her too.
but it was a fun 'chicken talking to duck' scene.
i hope she didn't find me too noisy, rattling off in my worse-than-substandard language.
but ya. tell you all a secret.
I'M ACTUALLY A CANTONESE.
:D

my nose is super runny.
my throat is super sore.
my head is super heavy.
:(
fortunately today is thursday, with only 2 lessons.
or for sure i wouldn't be able to survive the day.
i tried to sleep in school today.
but kenny was being such an ass (like always) by irritating me loads.
KENNY YOU WATCH OUT.
it sucks to fall sick now, esp with CNY coming!!!
i can say goodbye to all my bbq meat and pineapple tarts.
:(




i confirm plus chop will sleep early today.
PROMISE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLICIA!!!
shandy loves you :D
now that you're 18, you can...
watch m18 movies
drink alcohol
drive
AND GET MARRIED :)
i'm so proud of you.
i could volunteer my services if you decide to :D

today was NOT a normal day.
(although allicia humbly claims it to be)
it's not everyday you get to run 3.2km under the scorching sun.
though i only ran 2.4km cos i almost died.
it suddenly occurred to me that GP isn't the scariest subject after all.
IT'S PE.
extremely depressing.
like...
you can fear going for GP lessons.
well it's the same for PE.
but you don't come out of GP class DEPRESSED.
i felt so tortured today.
:(






i'll make sure i've got cramps every friday afternoon.


first week of school
and my life is already almost hectic.
got some new teachers this year.
like PE. i got mr sham.
@#$%$@$%!!!
I WANT MENON!!!
he made us run 6 rounds on the first lesson while every other class was slacking.
SIX ROUNDS!!
and he told me my running timing was ATROCIOUS.
WAHLAO.
menon would've teased me for being the 'closing ceremony'
but at least he would've said WELL DONE for finishing it.
oh it's GOOD to know that that's not the worse.
i got the BEST TEACHER IN NJ for GP.
every irritating being walks past my GP class with that look of mockery on their dumb faces.
I'LL DIG YOUR EYEBALLS OUT!!!
yes and so we all have to arrive in class with LONG SKIRTS and TUCKED IN blouses.
ah how contented i must be with such a teacher!!
@#$@#$@$@#!!!!





i hope i don't dream of her.

i'm uber depressed.
you know what's worse than having no hope?
it's having false hope.
at least the former allows you to face reality soon enough.
i've been living in my own world thinking that i'm about to finish my hol hw.
then an atomic bomb dropped on me.
just realised that there's extra an chem assignment and some more econs to do.
OH. and math tutorials (which is damn bad cos i slept through all the post promos lectures!)
ah. my life is depressing.
it's either ppl enjoy dropping bombs on me or i'm oblivious to all that's around me.
equally bad!!
i feel like just abandoning everything and go shopping.
I NEED TO SHOP!!!!!
:(






blue.

you see, when i blog in the middle of a random afternoon...
IT MEANS I'M DAMN SICK OF HOMEWORK.
depressing!!!!!
oh wells.
i've still got a whole load to complete.
and i'm barely left with a few miserable days.
GO SHANDY GO!!!
YOU CAN SURVIVE!!
yea let's hope so.
i love homework yes i do!
you're so cute and wonderful!
ya right. okay. i'm uber convinced.
by the way, justin is enlisting really soon.
i think i'll miss seeing him and charlene around in school.





off to chem-ing!!

one whole morning.
i finally finished 1/3 of GP.
i'm gonna TRY to do 30% of chem.
math can go fly kite.
cos i'm damn sick of math.
and zhix just told me there was a bio paper to complete.
in addition to all the other worksheets.
@#$%#@$&%#$@!!!!!
i hate doing bio papers.
especially the essay part.
but oh wells.
let's hope it can be copied from the bio notes.
now now shandy...
WHERE ARE YOUR BIO NOTES??!
hmmm.
i've got no idea...?
oh by the way.
i finally got my shoes!
and i'm so itching to go shopping.
leanne said there's post christmas sale everywhere!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
and i'm at home TRYING to do chem.
:(


ah it's the time of the year again.
when i get all so depressed and flustered over holiday assignments.
dreadful.
i'm now at the com, with chem and math cluttered on the table.
bio's somewhere around too.
ah so sad.
and i told myself i'll come online to check out the opposing viewpoints website for GP.
yea right shandy.
see what you're doing now?!
i want to go out.
i want to go shopping.
i want to go watch movies.
i want to sit down and chill at cafes.
i want to do lame stuffs with my friends.
I JUST DON'T WANT TO STAY HOME TO DO HOMEWORK :(
holiday assignments and i can never coexist.
NEVER.
and i'm back to being depressed and flustered.
maybe a little sleepy as well.





GREY.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
shall not bother to have any new year resolutions since i hardly keep them.
though it's always good to have some things in mind.
okay i'm feeling slightly guilty now.
i'm blogging while i'm supposed to do math.
but who cares la. IT'S NEW YEAR'S DAY :D
spent my new year's eve with the YFers at chalet.
after that we went for half-night prayer and watch-night service.
taught me serious business.
as hard as we try, we aren't the ones who determine what happens.
but i'm thankful.
probably something i should always keep in mind :)
went back to the chalet after that.
sleeping on that hard THING almost killed my back.
went home early this morning to sleep on my darling bed :D
leanne took over my 'bed space'.
two hours later she couldn't take it too. HAHA.
only jethro can stand it la.
he slept so super soundly, unbelievable.
he suits the army.
OCS NEEDS YOU :D
ah. back to dreaded math.
let's try to be positive :)










in His time.



my nose is killing me.
it hasn't stopped since forever.
i'm feeling like crap now.
damn and i've got to chiong homework.



:(

extremely hectic.
and broke.
and tired.
and depressed (mainly cos i've got mountains of hw)
you know, at the rate i procrastinate
i'll probably never finish my holiday hw.
ah but it's always been tradition.
since... primary school.
i've been extremely busy ever since i returned from cebu.
although i was fortunate enough to have days i just stayed at home and did nothing.
but busy made the bulk of my days.
which is extremely sad.
christmas was fun with all the partying and stuff.
but it's obvious how much christmas has been commercialised.
anyway.
i just wanna say hw is killing me.
i've been doing everything but studying this holidays.
and i must say it's extremely difficult to get my butt to the study table to start doing hw.
moreover i've thrown 50% back to my teachers.
another 45% is kept in my cupboards.
so i'm left with 5%, which obviously can't get me anywhere.
so maybe i should retrive my 45% first, meaning packing all my notes.
but that'll take me one week.
and i need to get back the 50% from the teachers.
which means only when school reopens.
in conclusion, i probably won't be able to complete them with 5%.
ah.
i'm a sad soul.
i wanna go shopping :(






flightless.

ah.
twilight opens on 18 dec.
which happens to clash with YF camp :(
I WANNA WATCH TWILIGHT!!!!!!!
boooo.
i haven't found time to settle all my cebu pics and get more pics from everyone.
or maybe i'm just lazy :P
but anyway, it'll come soon.
I HOPE.
chem homework is due on mon.
although i can't really understand how to send it to yip.
ah and i haven't started.
by the way.
leaving email addresses around isn't a good idea at all :(
my whole friendster thing is quite... well...
tainted.
in case ppl try to search for my blog and stuff, i shan't say much (right xF?)
time to sleep.
my eyebags can cover my eyes lor!! :(








i was not supposed to miss you.


BACK.
cebu was fun!!
especially with all the interactors.
i'll post all the stuffs soon.
when i get all the pics :D
went shopping today and i wanna cry.
saw a really really uber pretty top at pull and bear.
but they didn't have a smaller size.
even the other branch didn't have it!
@#$%$#@$#@%!!!!!!!!
irritating.
and so, that was my saddest event of the day.
the top was ROYAL PURPLE!!!!!
pretty pretty.
but it'll never be mine!!!!
SOBS.
oh ya.
and my phone is dead.
any attempt to resuscitate failed.
so i've got to send it to A&E tmr.
okay i need sleep more than anything else now.
i shall stop lamenting over the pretty purple top.
:(

WOOHOO!!
i'm flying tmr!!
in another 22 hours.
am i ready?!
of course....
not.
haha. still packing!!
my luggage gonna burst already.
got no idea how i'm bring my stuffs back.
well such trival stuff shall not bother me for now.
i'll worry later.
oh yes i think i'll start worrying when its contents burst into infinity.
ah.
holiday assignments.
they've always been the bane of my life.
but for now, let's not give a hoot bout them and enjoy my trip!!
YAY!!!







and she bade him goodbye.

supporting actors are usually better looking than the main ones.
they usually just make your heart melt
and make you go 'awwwwwwwww'
BUT....
they usually don't get the girl!!!!!!!
i'm watching a super lame drama now.
like the 'slappable' kinds.
meaning you watch and feel like slapping the person who wrote it.
but the supporting actor is just so...
awwwwwwwwww.
damn he deserves the girl a hundred times more.
but oh wells.
not as if he exists.
however, if he really does, he'll put all the guys in NJ to shame.
HAHA.
ah yes.
i can't quite believe i'm flying on monday already.
which makes it extremely exciting.
but of course it gets me really freaked out on how fast time flies.
exco meeting today at my place was fine.
had practice with sihui and joycelyn after that.
sihui's 'merlion' act got me quite amused.
:D



and it's time for me to go

barely 4 days to cebu
and my rash chooses to act up only now.
it's really...
ITCHY.
apparently the doctor said it'll get worse in rural areas.
oh perfect.
i might just faint from 'over itchiness'
i just started packing my stuff today.
created a to-bring-list and it's LONG.
i'm bringing my whole house there!
got ALOT of stuffs to bring.
oh wells.
exco meeting at my place tmr.
meaning CLEAN UP TIME again.
and my room is in a mess.
my clothes are everywhere cos i've got to pack for the trip.
sobs.




yet another.

being offline most of the time this week has been good.
deciding to go online to read tmr's camp meeting agenda was a BAD idea.
it's really irritating when your hair is dripping wet in the middle of the night
and you have ppl telling you a whole load of crap online.
they tell you all the stuff you've got to do.
it's like...
a tsunami.
seriously, even if it means ganjitsheng calling me a 'no life' kid, i'd rather stay offline.
at least it means i don't have to face too much crap.
I WANNA CRY ALREADY LA!!!
:(
to add on to it, i've got to wake up uber early tmr for interact meeting.
i'm feeling extremely grumpy now.
i might just die of frustration.
:(
ah crap.

LAP retreat tmr!!
can't wait to know how the pri 6s did for PSLE!
hope we won't need to see any of them next year.
oh wells.
i've been slacking for the past 3 weeks.
i'm starting to feel guilty.
but then again.
almost every holiday has been like this.
i think i'm queen of procrastination.
and i'll end up chionging homework at the super last minute.
maybe i should start doing soon.
since everyone is overseas and i've got no one to play with :(
and my cebu trip is nearing!!
so exciting :D
today was quite a fun day.
had dim sum.
the fried banana red bean ball was the bomb!!
like what mijie says
"you take one bite and you hear angels singing at your ears"
awwwwwwwwww.
i'm feeling hungry already.
went shopping with mommy.
got a pair of shoes!
but not the bag that i've got my eyes on :(
actually i saw a even prettier one beside it.
but i didn't get it either :( :(
it's okay.
ONE DAY YOU'LL BE MINE!!!
:D
ah i need to sleep.
marcus said my eye bags could cover my eyes.
oh someone shut him up.





we'll be playmates and lovers
and share our secret worlds

woke up aching all over today.


went to make passport today.
it was surprisingly easy.
then went to vivo.
walked around and stuff.
ate at hog's breath!
food was okay.
the soup was cute though.
it was served in a cup!
the mudpie and ice cream was quite fine too :D
went to st marg's primary after that.
solely cos i was feeling somewhat nostalgic.
walked all the way up mt sophia!
chatted with some pri school girls.
apparently they never learnt to not talk to strangers.
haha. went to mt emily park too!!
it changed quite a bit i think.
i played at the swing.
my whole world was spinning after that.
quite giddy.
ya. maybe i should act my age next time :P
went to eat beancurd after that!!!
really nostalgic!!
cos my dad used to bring me there after picking me up from school.
it still taste as good :D
ahhhhhhhh.
germaine just told me bout badminton gathering tmr.
at vivo again.
sian leh.
okay fine.
maybe i should really catch up with them.
it's been a million years since i've met them.
kinda miss them :)





i'll be your best friend,
you'll be my valentine.


i was reading my past posts again.
quite amusing.
really don't know what was going through my head when i wrote them.
had camp games dry run in church yesterday.
it was quite funny.
we were all fooling around doing dumb stuff.
but it was extremely tiring.
i'm going pri 5 friend's place tmr!
it's been almost a year since i've visited.
she wants me to go watch horror films with her.
mainly cos she doesn't dare to watch them alone.
but i forgot to tell her that i'm easily freaked out.
i wanna watch the second part of eye 10!!
the break dance part is super funny.
but herman wanted to watch his LOTR that day.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
and she wants to watch zombie films!!
i think zombies are scarier than ghosts.
cos zombies just keep chasing after you.
and they look uber disgusting.
they don't die no matter how many times you shoot them.
and it can get super disturbing to watch zombie films.




i'm going to bed.
hope i don't dream bout them.

ah crap.
i just finished watching Ten Brothers.
the ending is damn sad.
#%^*$%##*%&*!!!!!

met up with joy to watch coffin today!
it was quite scary.
shockingly scary.
they choose the presumingly not scary parts to scare ppl la!!!
and both of us screamed like mad.
it was quite amusing.
oh how i miss freaking out with her.
:D
but the plot quite lousy la.
it's just the ghost that's super freaky.
then we went over to pastor razo's place for hyun jun's farewell.
was quite fun.
we ate naga-food (nagaland food) cos razo's from nagaland.
it tasted chinese though.
then we shared island ice cream!
courteousy of alena who went all the way from NUH to serene to get it.
we talked a whole load of rubbish and stuff.
and we gave hyun jun his zara scarf!!
alena said it was so winter sonata.
HAHA.
she actually likened hyun jun to baeyongjun.
which was rather unbelievable.
awwwwwww.
he's leaving.
i hope he'll be back though.
and razo will be leaving for nagaland too!!!
sobs.




i'm getting sleepy.
hopefully i won't have nightmares bout the movie.

sleeping makes me sleepier!!
i realised i've been sleeping quite a bit.
that i'm starting to feel easily lethargic.
and once again, i wasted my day away.
i TRIED to organize my piles of papers though.
but it's NOT THAT COMPLETE yet.
so i just chucked them all back into the cupboard.
and i painted my nails with a new colour i got from mixing two colours!!
:D
by the way.
i haven't been posting for the past few days.
monday was an INTERACTful day.
cos my whole day revolved around interact meetings.
i had two meetings back to back at my place.
ppl at my place = PACK UP!!!
so i had to wake up REALLY EARLY.
adding on to that was SOMEONE waking me up at 6.50am.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
I APPRECIATED IT.
then sihui came over for the cebu trip meeting in the afternoon.
she was like...
REALLY HUNGRY.
but ya.
they were a whole load of fun.
exco meeting that morning totally made me change my mind bout working.
i almost fainted.
a million and one projects to initiate and complete.
SOBS!!!
sad stuff aside.
i went shopping with monks darling yesterday!!
though i was totally not in the mood.
i was super lethargic.
but her company was still, well, "the bomb"!
haha. but i was almost dead after the whole day.
and at 8 plus 9 a crazy pig asked me to go out to drink something.
for the sole reason he didn't feel like going home.
hello boy.
WAKE UP!! try to be a normal pig can.
so actually, my life isn't as 'no life' as ganjitsheng puts it.
tmr's hyunjun's farewell!!
we bought him a zara scarf!!
i think he'll look really good with it!!
:D
awwwwwwwww.
but he's leaving.
i'll miss his really lame ways.




goodbye my friend.
why does it seem like everyone's leaving?
:(

i was wrong when i said my ankles were fine yesterday.
they are not!!
i woke up 4 in the morning squirming in pain.
and since there was no living soul at such a horrid hour
i had to hobble out of bed to get ointment.
and i really hate the smell of ointment.
but i could finally sleep.
then the pain came again at 8am.
once again, there was no one around!
well except my grandma.
but it won't be nice to tell her that my ankles were dying.
so i had to apply more smelly ointment.
then i went back to bed again.
HAHA.
i know what you're thinking.
NO I'M NOT A PIG.
i was just tired lor!
and i spent my whole day slacking at home.
since shopping was out of the question with a bad ankle.
:(
i watched a couple of shows though.
though it got quite boring when i started watching too many.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.




i'll be out there again soon!

today was a s09ful day.
my day revolved around the s09ers.
met hubby in town for shopping!
though we didn't buy lots of stuff, it was really fun.
she dressed prettily today.
and she tried on high heels!
plus this really cute shirt.
i'm so proud of her :D
but we walked super a lot.
i'm glad my ankles are still alive :D
then we met zhix and ameline at cine.
was a rather short meeting.
cos zhix and i realised we were late to send a friend off.
so we rushed (as in really rushed) to get a present at taka.
then met liktak, cassandra and minghan at the airport.
minghan was super funny, as always.
and liktak, i love your ear stud.
so CHARMING.
HAHA.
ate dinner with zhix and minghan.
the food was so salty, it was as if salt was free.
then they came over to sit and talk.
dug out minghan's love history.
it was quite a load of fun.
hmmmm.
i kinda miss the old s09.
:(





p.s. i want that dress :D

"if we never see each other again
and you're out walking one day,
you feel a certain presence beside you.
that'll be me loving you from wherever i am"

i watched My Sassy Girl today.
the english remake of it.
and this was what he said to her.
really sweet.
but the korean one was nicer :)
OP is finally over.
marking the end of PW
and the start of LIFE.
but i think there's holiday homework.
can't really remember.
don't really bother to remember.
tomorrow shall worry for itself.


:(
i need to whine.
PW is killing me.
OP is killing me even more.
talking was never so dreadful.
it's depressing.
OP's on monday.
hope i don't blank out that day.
and that i don't crack during QnA.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

it was yet another PW-ful day.
which was undoubtedly awful.
i'm quite scared for OP though.
KAT made it sound as though we were dreadful during the dry runs.
my pw mates came over today.
and i had to pack up the place.
no wonder my dad loves it when my friends come over.
there was this weird guy who called today.
he spoke with a pathetic accent and said he was from stan chart bank.
YA RIGHT.
he told me i could get a cash loan of up to 4 times my monthly salary.
me: i don't need a cash loan
him: oh why, miss?
me: COS I HAVE CASH.
(which was quite a lie cos i haven't recovered from my personal financial crisis)
then finally he gave up.
i can't believe he actually asked why i don't need a cash loan.
damn i should've told him i needed a cash loan.
and that i earn a million bucks a month.
let's see if he's really got 4 million to vomit out.






ah.
back to OP.
love it, shandy.
at least for 4 more days.

you know, it's really interesting to see another side of someone.
well preferably a better side.
especially guys.
maybe cos i don't quite understand what's going through their peanut heads.
so i get a huge shock when i find out a really different side of them.
some of them can get really emotional
some maybe really sweet
or some extremely loyal.
kind of learnt something.
although first impressions are really important, they don't tell the full story.
well at least it's comforting to know
that however bad they are, there's a portion of their soul that's nice.
:D




off to PW!
p.s. i just cut a bunch of hair out by accident.
OUCH :(


went for skin center check-up today!!
it was another doctor again.
HE WAS SUPER NICE.
he was a fishcake.
well not a heart throb.
but his nice-ness made up for it.
:D
went for PW again.
but today quite slack.
just met up and practiced OP.
though it's still kinda screwed up.
SIX MORE DAYS.
:D

my entire life revolves around PW!!!
sobs.
OP is the bane of my life.
i've got only SEVEN DAYS.
and these seven days might be the darkest week of my beautiful postpromos days
much to my displeasure.
i was supposed to watch The Coffin with pri 5 friend tmr.
but...
PW took it away.
i miss scaring the crap out of ourselves watching horror films together.
although i think i'll freak out a hundred times more than last time.
PW IS MY FRIEND.
I WILL LOVE PW FOR SEVEN DAYS.
ONLY SEVEN DAYS.





like flowers.


i officially declare a state of financial crisis!!
all my reserves have been depleted.
allicia blamed it on too many shopping expeditions.
but i thought bout it.
NO!!!!
it's only 40% due to shopping k!
school is the one that has been drying up my reserves!!!
stupid WR printing, year book, class fund etc...
suck all my $$$$$$$$$$$$$
now i can't even walk in a shopping mall in peace!!
and we just went for s09 PAE dinner to send kenneth off.
eating was never so difficult and painful.
firstly it sucked more $$$$$$$$$$
secondly the food was quite sucky
thirdly we were 'forced' to finish the food.
seriously, how much food can a table of girls finish?!
zhixin proved to be much of a disappointment yesterday.
probably the worms in her stomach were sleeping.
WAHAHAHAHA.
and my brother's birthday is coming.
falls on my OP k!!!
what an UNLUCKY day.
and i need to get him a present (means more $$$$$$$$$$ required!!)
shandy.
you should just stay at home and live on porridge.
but it's okay.
the dark days will soon be over.
i forsee an economic revival!!!
(i cross my fingers and my toes)
very soon i'll be out again!!
liangsihui.
yes.
you'll have to wait for that economic revival to take place before i can go out with you.
but i'm sure it's soon.
let's wait a day or two.
:D



by the way.
chanced upon DBSK's new album.
the lyrics of 'you're my melody' is so....
SWEET.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

super sleepy.
but maybe i should blog :D
i felt slightly less dumb during chem lessons today.
just that this guy who came much later than me ended up explaining to me stuff.
but i'll choose to believe that he's smart
rather than i'm dumb.
haha.
and thanks to him i did catch some ball today!
(that's worth celebrating cos it happens quite rarely)
was audience for yenpeng's pw presentation.
her pw mate was EXTRAORDINARY cute.
(no ganjitsheng, not you)
his "LET'S GO!" was super inspirational.
:D
came home after that and caught a little of 'Sky of Love'
what type of lan diao show is that la??!!!
so i just stoned in front of the screen, scorning the dumb show.
but met sihui to get medical clearance.
it was super funny.
the doctor pressed my tummy and all around i started laughing like mad.
the blood pressure thing (yes mr low, i rmb it's called a sphygmomanometer) was uber painful.
in the end, we got our $20 letter.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
we went for LAP after that.
but we were so late, they ended after we reached.
then we lazed around in the centre and crapped a whole load.
really funny!
and i came home to find a pack of nimm 2 on my bed!
YAY!!
i love nimm 2! :D
thanks mr wong.
HAHA.


okay.
i'm already dozing off!


i successfully faded into the background during chem today.
and i'm glad i did!
well at least i saved the embarrassment.
:D
had a long break from pw tech run to lecture.
so i rotted with kenny and ying hui at the grandstand.
it was SO amusing.
tmr's the OCS excursion!!
i love excursions!!!
they are so fun.
cos there's usually loads of fun and crappy stuff.
and most importantly, PHOTOS!
ahhhhhh.
how i miss excursions with 4/6!
all the crazy stuff we'll do.
sobs.
oh wells.
let's hope tmr will be as fun.
i think we'll just go there and mock the guys.
okay.
maybe just kenny.
HAHA.
you watch out WONGKENYAN.
that's for suaning me so much today.
WAHAHAHAHAH.
anyway.
i'm going out with shaonainai tmr!!!
so exciting.
ENFPs will turn orchard upside down.
:D

it feels weird to not be in school!
but okay.
i should count my blessings!
:D
i spent my whole morning doing InR
and my whole afternoon editing it.
and i'm still at it!
my word count has exploded into infinity.
i can't cut it down!!!
and i've got to edit the ppt slides later.
my life revolves around PW.
3 nov.
i totally can't wait.
had dry run that day.
KAT said i was 'too happy' la!!!
@#$%$*!!!
where got like that la??!!
i thought you weren't supposed to sound dead.
fine.
i'll go there all DEPRESSED.
okay.
i'm going to try to 'unexplode' my word count.
but that's like mission impossible.
i think 'Coffin' seems quite interesting.
just it'll probably scare the crap out me.
joy said we'll watch it together!
i still remember how we used to was horror shows together.
hilarious.
and we were only in primary school.
yes i realised.
i had more guts when i was much younger.
haha.


it feels absolutely weird.
as if my heart is hanging in mid air.

i haven't been sleeping alot lately.
so i'm super zombiefied.
NJ's open house today was super DEAD.
like you can't even tell it's an open house.
everyone trotting around are NJCians.
but monks came today!!
brought her family around and stuff.
it's quite amusing to see how her brother resembles her.
:D
went to town with mijie after that.
she's like the funniest person on earth.
she was supposed to ACCOMPANY me for shopping.
in the end she was the one buying everything la!!!!
i regret not getting that pair of UBER PRETTY earrings!!!
sobs.
then we rushed all the way from town to clementi for tuition.
in the end we just lan diao-ed there la!!
should've just stayed in town to shop somemore.
then maybe i would have bought that pretty pair of earrings!
sobs again.
i've been extremely depressed these days lor!!
i need more sleep
more shopping
less pw
less holiday homework



drift.

today was probably one of the days i felt the dumbest.
:(
went for H3 chem lesson after ponning a million lessons.
well i'm glad i did pon them.
i spared myself the immense agony of feeling dumb.
totally didn't get what the teacher was saying.
but she had pretty hair and clothes.
a quite hot body too.
and as if the lesson wasn't bad enough, there were barely NINE students today.
so the teacher gave the students loads of attention.
and that's bad!
cos i totally didn't know anything.
i couldn't even get away with not doing the exercises.
so i had to PRETEND to do them.
but since she was free enough to walk around, i really had to write stuff down.
stuff that was, well, chemically sound.
obviously that was mission impossible la!
as if PW hadn't made me depressed enough.
:(



dummy.

whee!!
i'm at home blogging while most are at c'est la vie now.
but i'm quite convinced i'm not missing out on a lot.
well if you think i am, don't tell me.
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i'd rather keep believing i'm having a hundred times more fun at home.

i've been out really often these days.
watched 4 movies in a short span of 2 weeks i think.
until a bit sian.
haha.
but painted skin was uber sweet.
like the....
you jump i jump kinda thing.

the long break at home after promos was not exactly a very good thing.
after getting used to the pampering 10 hours of sleep everyday for 7 days
7 hours a day now is definitely not enough.
plus all the dreadful pw and lessons
life in school now isnt a breeze at all.
wait. it was never a breeze.
by the way.
my pw mate just suaned me that day for sleeping at 11.
damn him.
i'm human okay.
unlike him.
oh and recently i've been sleeping quite soundly during lectures.
eh i'm not to blame k.
LT 5 is just too comfy!!
even more comfy than cinema chairs (i can testify!)

i always forget to take pics when i go out!!
even when with ning.
so ya.
no pics to beautify my darling lalaland.
but erm just try to imagine...?
like just think of ME :D

recently hooked on to dramas and movies.
and you know how some dramas can get so....
awwwwwwwwwwwww.
i miss drama-ing!
but ya.
i realised i've got alot of tutorials to do.
and since it's after promos
my brains have been programmed to recognized such language as gibberish.
so i've got no idea what's going on in tutorials and lectures.
AGAIN.


tv time.
:D

okay. i admit i've been lazy.
PROMOS OVER!!!! (ya like 5 days ago :P)
oh ya.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING GIRLFRIEND MONKS!!!!
:D
love ya loads!
okay.
today was a super fun day!
woke up this morning and ning dated me out!!!
then we ate at NYDC and went to watch hanadan final.
OHMYGOODNESS.
it was super sweet.
it was quite unrealistic though.
but that's precisely why ppl watch movies.
cos such stuffs don't happen in life.
:D
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
sweet.
haha.
then met mommy for shopping!!!!
ate crystal jade!!
the dumplings tasted as if they fell from heaven!
:D
bought clothes and stuff.
so i'm a happy girl today.
super tired though.
my shoulders are about to break into two!!
they are aching SO badly.
no regrets though!
:D


i'm rotting away at home
with mountains of notes waiting for me
accompanied by those long overdue tutorials
i just can't fix my butt to the study table.
my life sucks.
wait.
I DON'T HAVE ONE!
boooooooooooooooooooooo.
there's barely a few more days of holidays left.
and they aren't even considered holidays.
more of...
study break.
but they don't really count as that for shandy.
cos she isn't studying.
as much as i waste my life away
walking here and there
going to the computer, randomly clicking on stuff
opening the fridge for nothing
day dreaming.... etc
this huge feeling of guilt whacks me right in the face at the end of the wasted day.
AND IT REALLY SUCKS.
oh wells.
but it's not the first time i'm facing this.
i always do.
just that this time, exams are really quite near.
okay fine.
i've always been like that.
since...
primary school or something
oh yes.
and once again, i wasting my time blogging.
then soon guilt will set in again.
FINE. I'M OFF.


today was yet another sleepy day.
no fun.
no excitement.
extremely boring.
went to skin centre again.
i was looking forward to a cool doctor this time.
when i found out who my doctor was, i thought he had a cool name.
Christophe Francois Hsu
then i walked in.
he looked like a....
overage small boy.
haha.
but he wasn't nice at all!!!
lousy doctor.
lousy diagnosis.
he probably thought i was paranoid or something.
and i waited a million years to pay for consultation.
and another million years for my medicine.
the amount of medicine prescribed was...
AMAZING.
almost like one year's supply.
there were so many i couldnt differentiate which one for what.
and he thinks i'm a cow la.
like many many tubes of cream.
i've been getting so many types of creams and stuff from different doctors.
i think i can set up my own pharmacy.
it's like a...
collection.
unfortunately not one i really fancy.
but it amuses me sometimes when i look at the whole pile of them.
and since i usually don't finish them, i may have creams that have been expired a few years ago.
OOPS.
:D
too lazy to throw away.


ECONS VA CAN KILl.
i'm already half dead.
they should spare a thought for computer idiots who don't friggin know who to do a poster.
design idiots too.
after all, what matters is the content.
so i feel that they are wasting my time making me crack my head on how to design a dumb poster.
haven't they considered its opportunity cost??!
i've got piles of undone tutorials (as usual) and promos are coming.
booo.
and my intellectual HC friend was telling me bout how promos make him emo.
THANKS LOR.
and i'm slogging my butt off trying to do econs VA.
sobs.
it's a sad sad world.
anyway, the LAP kids are performing at esplanade tmr!!!
so exciting.
i've promised shao nai nai that i'll bring make up for her.
she'll be SO GLAD.
:D


i'm drowning in homework.
but i'm still living in my own lalaland world.
and promos are COMING.
faints.
this whole week just zoomed past.
and that's the scary thing!!!
weekends coming!
:D
ah.
and then i don't know how to continue.
i've got no idea what else i wanna blog about.
haha.
oh ya.
khooweiwey just sent me a 15 days late sms to say happy birthday.
I'M SO PROUD OF HER.
:D





I NEED TO BLOG.
today was such a pissifying day.
i think guys are extremely irritating creatures.
sorry all the nice guys reading this (you are an endangered species)
I HAVE TO SAY THIS.
some guys just don't know how to read your TONE.
like they can't tell that you are pissed.
and they take you for granted.
thinking that you're super free.
oh yes i'm super free.
and i'm having fun blogging bout how irritated i am when i'm already drowning in tutorials.
I REALLY APPRECIATE IT, THANK YOU.
oh yes.
only you have tutorials to do.
others don't know what it means when you don't reply their sms.
it simply means i'm darn busy (or i hate you)
so shut up and buzz off!!
oh my.
you don't understand that too?
awwwwwwwww.
HOW SAD.




and once again i ponder.
if i ever set up a totalitarian government in singapore
i'll send all ungentlemanly guys (more like brainless) to labour camps.
i'll make them work their butts off.
i'll make sure they'll be enslaved forever.
but don't worry.
food and lodging will be provided.
have fun!
:D



went out for dinner today.
i learnt the art of 'hit and run' shopping.
walk in.
grab.
try them on.
cash it.
:D
so exciting!!
i just remembered that EOM is due this week.
*horrors*
but since i can't read KAT's handwriting on my first draft
i shall do it tmr (what a lame excuse but i don't care :P)
and i declare a state of emergency in my room.
i'm starting to be unable to find my stuff.
and it's getting increasingly difficult to find space to do homework.
so...
IT'S BAD.
ever so rarely i'll find a need to pack my room.
and when i realize i need to, it's usually in a BAD state.
but YAY!!
national day holidays are coming!
(emphasis on holidays and not national day :P)
it means more sleep!!
:D:D:D:D:D
by the way.
if i'm not wrong, bel's birthday is round the corner.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING BIG BIRD!!
muacks!
and steph is coming back this fri!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
:D


I'M SEVENTEEN!!!!
today was a day of extreme sweetness.
i woke up this morning, thinking that it will be quite a sad birthday.
cos my mom didn't say HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
haha.
but i got my 'surprise' present anyway.
:D
thank you all for the gifts!
they are absolutely beautiful, each one of them.
but i think the best of all were words.
all the letters and notes and whiteboard(?!) were really really sweet.
i got handmade cakes from my darling interact pres and cousin!!
:D
and ppl whom i didn't expect would rmb wished me happy birthday!!
awwwwwwww.
thanks ppl!!!
really really appreciate it.

to 08s09:
thanks girls!!
you all are extremely sweet!
:D
love you all loads!

to my darling family (though you all won't get to see this):
thanks ya!!
even my super old ah ma remembered.
muacks!!

to the YFers:
eh eh.
ppl i grew up with.
you guys have helped me through ALOT of things.
so thanks.
:D

to SMSS babes:
thanks for remembering.
even though i'm no longer making noise in class.
stay hot!!

and to my dear dear twin in US...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO DARLING!!!
:D

166TH SPEECH AND PRIZE GIVING DAY

i've not been posting!!
i know.
:D
cos of....
INSTALLATION.
fortunately, it's tmr.
but WHAT??!!
IT'S TMR!!!!
it's like OUR BIG DAY.
it feels as though i'm getting married.
haha.
a pity there aren't any white roses to romanticize the ceremony.
no elaborate decorations.
no pretty gowns.
and no good looking groom. (although peisi thinks the NUS guy who's coming is)
BUT...
WE HAVE EIGHT BEAUTIFUL BRIDES!
:D
we've been slogging our butts away these two months.
i just cross my fingers and my toes and hope that nothing goes wrong tmr.
if anything screws up, i hope i don't cry!!!



in faith.

I'M DEPRESSED.
i saw this really cute aldo bag online that day.
AND NOW IT'S GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't find it anymore.
:(
booooooooooooooooooooooo.
i've got no life.
i've got no time to go out shopping.
i've got no time to have tai tai sessions with monks.
i've missed almost everything exciting.
:(
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
absolutely depressing.


super busy.
can faint.
had dinner with shao nai nai after interact meeting today.
super funny.
talked a whole load of crap.
:D
it's been a million years since i've had such fun.
i didn't even have time to go shopping after common tests k!!!
extremely deprived.
:(
depressing.
i'm super sleepy!
but my hair is wet.
so i can't sleep.
i know what you're thinking now.
YES I'VE GOT A HAIRDRYER AT HOME.
but it spoils the hair!
i'm dying.
got piles of tutorials to do.
and integration sucks.
plus econs test on monday.
confirm K.O.
and the test will be on market structures.
like thanks.
i know the topic so super well cos i fall asleep almost every econs lecture.
it's not my fault k!
it's a combination of 2 factors.
lecturer and LT5 chairs.
who wouldn't sleep?!



ah.
i'm dozing off.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i'm back from ILTC!!
:D
really glad i'm back home
with a bed and clean toilets
and no frogs hopping around.
i took some pics of ILTC!!
put them up when i feel like.
haha.
anyway.
a million schools are having their installation!!
and there are so many dates to remember that i can't remember any.
i think i'm really busy.
i just can't remember what i'm busy with.
ah.
i'm really tired.
hate camps cos they make you lifeless.
and i've got tutorials to do!!!
sobs!!!

i've got so many things to do that i'm forgetting everything.
:(
i've got memory like a sieve.
and stuffs like organizers don't really help cos i'll forget to refer to them.
quite lame actually.
and i go around getting all so flustered cos i forgot something.
anyway.
there was a career fair in school today.
but everything was so 'govermenty'.
EDB HDB STB SAF DSTA... and more.
i told allicia she should work for HDB next time.
then she can design a mini orchard road at my doorstep.
:D
then i had this crazy idea of the air force.
cos guys in the white uniform look extremely smart.
:D
then came even crazier ideas like navy and police force.
which i personally found more hilarious.
cos i can't imagine myself going underwater when i don't know how to swim.
or running after thieves when napfa's 2.4 is enough to kill me.
oh wells.
i'm like in holiday mood still.
always sleepy.
chairs in LT5 always bring me straight to lalaland.
and apparently 3/4 of my lectures are there.
everyday is a struggle.
haha.
and to my horror, PW and VA need to be done SOON.
i'm like...
blur la.
die already la.

today was fun.
:D
had camp com meeting after YF (no, this isn't the fun part)
before that, we were talking bout intelligent pickup lines.
like...
are you square root 2?
cos my love for you is irrational.
and..
are you sine square?
cos i'm cosine square and you and i make 1.
it's so lame!
and the way leanne said it was so funny!
as if she was trying to seduce me.
but we all agreed that guys should never use them on bimbos.
they will never get the girl.
cos the girl doesn't know what's SINE.
but for ppl like jethro who hangs around HC girls
he should really learn such pickup lines.
he just might get himself a pretty nerdy HC girl.
:D
haha.
then auntie mei came over for dinner.
she brought MANY subway sandwiches and cookies.
:D:D
but it was really ALOT.
bel just sent me the fifty odd pics that we took on fri.
super hilarious.
it was BIMBOTIC.
oh wells.
i wanna go shopping.
i really really really wanna go shopping.
:(


shandy's having post CT syndrome.
:(
well i'm supposed to be jumping for joy now.
but i'm not.
feeling a bit lost.
cos i'm not doing what i routinely did for the past 3 weeks.
so lame!!!!
oh wells.
shao nai nai is trying to entertain me online.
:D
i've got this extreme urge to rush down to town and buy everything in sight!!
i feel like buying shoes.
and clothes.
and bags.
and MORE.
it's an addiction or something.
haha.
i've got bad eye bags cos of CTs!!
:(
i need to sleep them away.



shandy.
it's just FOUR DAYS.
a mere four days.
precisely!!!!
it's frigging FOUR DAYS!!!
:(
i doubt i'll survive.
i've been fretting over econs for the past week.
and now i'm starting to worry bout bio.
i've got frigging FOUR DAYS left to study bio.
i'm so dead.
the irony:
i'm getting the jitters cos there are only 4 days left to study.
but i really hate it cos there are 4 FAT DAYS before liberation.
grrrrrrr.
and it's GP and econs tmr.
i'm so dead.
i'll write till my fingers die
(well that's if i can find anything to write)
but shandy.
it's just common tests.
ah shut up.



when we fall down.

econs is REALLY killing me.
i'm extremely blessed to know ppl who are willing and able to help me.
(omg sounds so econs)
but ya.
i'll be so dead without them.
though i think i'm still gonna be dead for common tests.
haha.
jethro just went through applications of price theory with me.
i felt like an idiot.
:(
cos i really don't know a lot of things.
sobs.
i'm like dying.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.



reliance.

i'm so dead for econs.
i don't understand a whole load of stuffs.
seriously don't know why i didn't drop econs after PAE.
it was probably out of convenience.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
it's past midnight.
and i'm still fretting over econs.
my life sucks.
oh ya.
not forgetting bio.
MR LOW!!!
JC bio is SUCKY!!
:(
sometimes i feel i should've taken H1 phy and GSC instead of H2 econs.
but HAHA.
i think physics will kill me too.
so there's actually no difference.


i'm going to faint.
i'm a dead duck (quoting steph. but she's never really dead huh)

mugging kills.
yes.
shandy is already half dead.
sooooooooooo siannnnnnnnnnnn.
well it's not like i studied extremely much this morning that i'm saturated with info.
it's just the thought of sitting still and swallowing textbooks suck.
BIG TIME!
so i'm out of my war-torned room, blogging.
(yes, war torned. it's a pre-exam thing :D)
and i think i'm so ready for common tests.
ready to screw it up.
stupid justin leong said i'll get 4 Us.
:(
so evil.
even if he really thinks so, he shouldn't break my heart like that.
i mean like...
GIVE ME SOME HOPE!!
and guys prove to be really lousy at helping out.
sihui sent me an email bout 'man rules'
of which one of them states:
'come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. that's what we do. sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.'
ah.
what rubbish.
unless the guys i know are not guys.
OOPS.
i totally didn't mean that.
in the end, it was darling joy that saved me.
you go girl!
:D


alright.
i'm gonna resume the most hateful activity of the century.
:(

i haven't exactly been studying this weekend.
and it saddens me cos it's sunday night.
which means time is running out.
well it's not like i ever bothered bout time.
though the thought of common tests scares me quite a bit.
anyway.
i've got a big ugly bruise on my knee.
it's a huge purple patch.
and shao nai nai just told me she's got a huge bruise too.
haha.
so cute.
and my throat hurts like crap.
amazingly i sound normal.
haha.
:D
oh ya.
i feel harassed these days.
and extremely irritated.
totally makes my hair stand!!!
argh.
and dumb jethro and justin keep probing and talking bout it.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeew.
will not really go into details.
i still remember how our dear SJI gentleman (and so he claims)
found my blog.
it was quite scary.
so i will not try it again.
:D




there's interact tmr.
but tai tai and shao nai nai won't be there.
:(
i'll be quite alone.
sobs.
today was fine.
didn't feel very dumb until i tried to do the math revision package.
how nice.
:D
thanks can xF.
my ankle is getting better.
and don't worry.
the only person who will xin tong is me.
cos i've got to trot around with an ugly bandage.
haha.
by the way.
i think ppl who use vulgarities openly on the net are quite crude.
actually, extremely crude.
for example
as msn nicks or on friendster.
it's like public display of how uncultured they are.
and total disrespect for themselves and others.
especially the F word.
and it's quite interesting how some use it.
it's like a multifunctional word.
some use them as adverbs and adjectives.
oh ya.
and punctuations.
it's pretty much just for fun.
and that's the downright disgusting thing bout it.
yes.
i'm disgusted.
well fine.
i shouldn't bother.
cos i just don't care.
:)
anyway.
i'm directing at NO ONE in particular.
really. (if you're convinced)
it's just a personal opinion.
:D

i'm gonna faint.
i haven't started on bio and econs.
and these require A LOT of brain space.
i've got to stuff everything in the tofu within my head in ONE WEEK.
sure die la.
fortunately jethro is back.
that means help for econs (i hope)
it may still be useless though.
:(
ah.
my world is crashing.
i can't believe i'm dying in the hands of CTs.
how GLORIOUS.
argh.

i just sprained my ankle.
i think.
not very sure.
but it's starting to swell up.
it's not extremely painful though.
the way i sprained it was so...
random.
haha.
it's trying to tell me to stay home and be a standard NJ student.
i doubt i'll be able to trot around freely now.
oh wells.
just had lunch with marcus.
(i sprained my ankle while walking home %&*#$@!)
we talked a whole load of crap.
although i must agree that some part of that rubbish was quite intelligent.
but it was mainly crappy rubbish.
haha.
i'm starting to think maybe it's not a sprain.
actually.
i don't know.
and i'm feeling really sleepy now.
snores.

:(
there's barely half of the holidays left.
extremely depressing.
common tests after hols make it even worse.
:(
looked through chem today.
which made me feel like an idiot.
cos everything seemed so alien.
die.
my common tests are gonna be so dead.
being in NJ is quite sucky.
for the very fact that everyone mugs as if there's no tmr.
NJ redefines mugging.
it brings it to a whole new level man.
and i can't keep up to the mugging standards of NJ.
cos it's humanly impossible (at least for me)
if i mug at the NJ rate, i'll probably die early.
oh wait.
i'm already half dead.
so by the time i end my JC life (what life??!)
i'll probably be at least 97.5% dead.
how depressing.
SOBS.
:(
it's so dumb.
mugging kills.
but if you don't mug in NJ
YOU DIE.
so what's the difference?
you just end up in a really really bad state in the end.
it's whether you choose to die gloriously (in the eyes of mugger extremists)
or die retardedly (in the eyes of ppl like xianfong)
i'm going off to study.
i don't wanna call it 'mug'
cos it feels as though i'm commiting suicide.
though there's actually not much difference.
but maybe self delusion can help sustain me a tiny bit longer.
:(


ah yes.
grey.
just like NJ.

i happened to chance upon kids central's replay of Robbie and the Book of Tales that day.
so i decided to watch it again today.
i think it's not bad for a singapore kid's production.
cos i was amused.
haha.
fine.
i'm 16 going on 6.
:D
but i thought it was a well written screenplay.
it was rather entertaining.
okay.
i can't believe i'm posting bout how much i enjoy watching a show for kids.
haha.
who cares la.
anyway.
received a really cute sms from deborah today.
she has officially made today 4/6 DAY!!!
:D
erm.
cos it's the 4th of june.
haha.
she's super creative.
:D
my grandma was telling me today bout headless chickens flying around.
haha.
super funny.






i was a rebel for 2 days!!
all i did was eat, shop and talk.
:D
went shopping with monks at orchard yesterday afternoon.
was really fun cos we talked a whole load of crap.
i ended up walking the whole day.
hefty price to pay for the day out.
my back was hurting (i've seriously got no idea why!)
my feet were dying.
and my ankles were hurting extremely much.
but yea.
don't care la.
i had fun.
:D
today was another day out at orchard.
didn't buy much though.
cos everything was the same as yesterday.
but it still beats mugging.
:D
had dinner with xianfong, liktak and zhixin.
they provided great entertainment.
esp jokes ABOUT liktak.
super hilarious.
tmr will be another anti-mugging day!
well at least for the morning and night.
which makes it majority of the day.
:D
i was reading the tags and stuff...
SUPER TOUCHED!!
sobs (tears of joy :D)
puiwah!!
seeeeeeeeee.
many many :Ds in this post!
and dyanz!!
although i don't think i wanna go shopping for the moment...
but it's been a long long long time since i've baked!!
we'll bake nice nice stuff together soon k!!
:D
and you're always welcome for a sleepover!!

okay.
i feel a tiny bit of guilt not studying.
but...
:D


went to school for a mere 2 hours today.
attended GP consolidation lecture.
seriously.
it was boring.
i was entertaining myself by fiddling around with the red chairs in LT5.
i was sitting at the end of the row.
and i found out that you can lift the armrest at the ends too!
just that there aren't any foldable tables in there.
i had a hard time fitting the armrest back though.
:D
Vcheng should not see this.
she'll skin me alive for fooling around with her beloved CHAIRS in LT5.
kenny was another source of entertainment.
i had fun scribbling on his script.
:D
oh and i found my long lost eraser in LT5.
i think i lost it during mon's chem lecture.
AND I FOUND IT!!
it's not JUST an eraser.
it has a cute shape.
and it's greatly treasured.
:D
and i think i lost my ruler too.
my markers as well.
though i firmly believe they were kidnapped during college day preparations.
but the most unfortunate thing is...
COMMON TESTS ARE COMING.
*faints
and no,
all the prince charmings in the world have died.
i foresee none of them coming to save me.
yet another unfortunate thing.
:(

school makes me sad.
:(
this is one of my most depressing holidays.
it's like muggerdays.
coupled with many other sucky stuff.




monks.
let's go shopping again.
i need it.



IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF THE HOLIDAYS!!
:D
ironically, i think i'll be home the whole day.
well not exactly.
i've got to go out later for math tuition.
what a BRILLANT way to start the holidays.
and my NICE friend from RJ was telling me how EVENTFUL his last day of term was.
when all i did was to go school and come home.
really sad.
to make things a million times worse,
YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST DAY OF GSS.
:(
no LAP today.
so that means no fun with kids.
not forgetting long crapping sessions with AAIC.
:(
we should go for an AAIC outing.
:D
LET'S GO SIHUI!! LET'S GO!!!
:D:D

i'm finally done with GP VA!!
three cheers!
:D
i was actually quite afraid something will happen.
like my printer will screw up or something.
or my com will die halfway.
cos mr keith tan told us bout murphy's law during PW.
haha.
:D
i flipped through this week's issue of Newsweek last night. (this is one of the rare occassions i do)
had many articles bout luxury goods and stuff.
really nice.
they had things on personalised perfumes and million dollar phones.
but right smack in the middle was a writeup bout the sichuan quake.
with pictures of the destroyed county and its devastated ppl.
what an irony.
well there's certainly nothing wrong with indulgence.
but..
oh wells.
you get what i mean la.





my math tutorials are beckoning.
i hate math.
but i don't have a choice, do i?
:(


went for CAAL.
was quite fun today.
:D
two more days to holidays!
though i've got a feeling this holiday won't be a breeze at all.
:(
i've got GP VA to complete!
oh well.
i'm only halfway through it
and a billion ppl have completed it already.
sobs.
what on earth am i doing in a mugger school??!
i'm already dying.
:(
haha.
i remember how crappy i was last time.
i'd hope that my prince charming will come and save me from all these crap.
sort of realised i don't really say that anymore.
maybe it's cos i've been subconciously convinced that prince charmings do not exist.
what a shame though.
the world seems a tad less romantic without them.
oh my.
GP VA is calling out to me.
it's tugging at my sleeves, telling me to give it some attention.
unfortunately.
:(

i'm feeling queasy cos of the dumb medicine again.
:(
but anyway.
that's not the main point.
i read dao's blog just now.
she was feeling all so nostalgic from reading my past posts.
:D:D
then when she started quoting my posts
i realised how horribly lame and crappy i was last time.
seriously.
don't know how my brain worked last time
though i'm quite convinced it hasn't really changed.
:D
so i may have this underlying crapping trait that i haven't expressed for a long long time.
anyway.
i just realised i've got many mountains of tutorials to complete.
MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!!
and my table's extremely cluttered with papers.
my brother said my room will catch fire one day.
cos my electrical plugs and stuff have been burried by papers.
well it's not like i can help it.
:(
i'm born like that.
in sec school, puiwah won't be able to stand my mess and she'll pack my table for me.
THANKS GIRL!
it REALLY helped ALOT.
and now that there's no personal table in JC
MY BAG IS SUPER MESSY.
mijie got a shock when she opened my bag that day.
well good in a sense yea?
like ppl who want to steal my stuff will have an extremely tough time.
:D
okay.
back to GP VA plus many other tutorials.
obviously i won't be able to finish them.
:(


today was a do-nothing day.
:D
woke up really early for LAP meeting.
it was quite fun.
:)
then shao nai nai, tai tai and i went for an AAIC lunch.
and we sat and talked for more than 2 hours.
i love the aristocrat lifestyle!
you just talk and talk and talk.
like as if you've got no tutorials whatsoever waiting for you at home.
well, at least a break from the harsh reality.
then i came back and took a long long nap.
:D
unfortunately there weren't sufficient to remove horrid eyebags!
:(
there was supposed to be a interact dinner today.
although i really wanted to go...
i didn't.
:(
i was looking through bio ppt slides.
then i got really bored (well as usual..)
i started reading past posts.
like those 2 years back.
realised i was a million times crazier and crappier last time.
it may have seemed really lame and silly
but i really miss that shandy.
:(
i guess you gain some and lose some things along the way.
a pity sometimes you have to let go of stuff that you really treasure.
and daohui!
i realised A LOT of my past posts included your name!
and...
i really miss you.
all the times i complained to you bout how much i hate physics.
and the haagen daz ice cream that you insisted i ate in the morning.
awwwwww.
:(
by the way.
i found out my little crazy ambition that even i forgot.
it was like 2 years ago.
"one day if i ever establish a totalitarian government in a country, i would send all ungentlemanly guys to labour camps"
it was said for fun.
haha.



i'm meeting monks tmr!!
super excited!!!
:D

the antibiotics that the doctor prescribed sucks.
it makes me feel terrible after eating it.
my head will hurt like crap and i'll feel like puking.
:(
and since i just ate the pill
i'll be feeling like that in another 1 hour or so.
:(
apparently the doctor warned about the side effects.
but i didn't think it'll be so bad.
and since can't stop your course of antibiotics
(mr low must be super proud of me. i remember my sec 4 bio! :D)
i'll be suffering for another 40 days, twice a day.
although the holidays are coming
i don't think it'll be any proper holiday at all.
my theory that i came up with when i was young still holds.
holidays are just an excuse for teachers to pile you with work.
ah.
i see my long awaited holidays flying away.
:(



shandy was kissed by an angel today!
went for CAAL.
i saw my favourite kid!
he wasn't there when i went the previous time.
but he came today!
:D
apparently he has speech problems.
so he can't express himself as well as other kids.
but he spoke today!
he said bye to me.
:D
he gave me many hugs!
and...
A KISS! *melts*
but other than CAAL, today was plain boring.
although i managed to keep my eyes WIDE OPEN today.
:D
it's a great achievement k!
wednesdays are always so...
SLEEPY.
got to do tutorials now.
:(
what a sad way to end the day.
sigh.






IT'S MOTHERS' DAY!
but i didn't have the 'mothers' day' feeling today.
until ganjitseng sms me to tell me HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY
seriously.
what a filial son.
IN WHAT WAY DO I LOOK LIKE HIS MOM??!
ah.
fine.
GP essay test tmr!
i'm super prepared!!
prepared to fail!
it's not like i can help it.
my england isn't exactly powderful.
anyway.
i just realised i take a million years to pack my bag.
to think i don't even pack my bag in sec school.
everything will be under my table.
it's just that i'll take an extremely long time to dig for it during lessons.
:D
but nice ppl like weekee and auntie will help me search for them.
:D:D
i miss all my sweet partners.
yes.
and khooweiwey too.
although our happiness was shortlived.
haha.
awwwwwwww.
OH YA.
st marg's is going autonomous!!
*GASPS*
they've been wanting it since don't know when.
okay.
i've got to hit my darling pillow now.
or i'll be sleeping beauty tmr.
haha.
by the way.
the new LT5 is EXTREMELY COMFY to sleep in!
blackface lee says it's like...
AEROPLANE CHAIRS.
haha.
sure.
it's like a plane that takes you straight to lalaland.




head or heart?
seriously.
i've got no idea.
ENFPs feel.
but sometimes
i'd rather think.
cos my heart isn't always correct.

my shoulders hurt!
:(
tote bags aren't healthy at all.
especially when you throw everything (whether you need them or not) into your bag.
and despite the fact that i've cleared and filed MOST of my worksheets
i'm still carrying a 3 inch thick file around!
see amelia koh.
i'm born like that.
it's some chronic syndrome or something.
like...
an over-affinity with papers and thick files.
i can't help it.
:D
i'm like having serious STM recently.
can't remember A LOT of things.
most frequently what i wanna say.
it's such a pain.
and i'll try REALLY hard to remember it.
but i usually can't
:(
anyway.
NJ had sports meet on wednesday!
i was surprisingly quite high.
haha.
seriously.
4 years in st marg's.
i don't remember having fun during sports day.
but this year's was quite funny.
i guess it's the company.
s09 went quite crazy.
we started playing with water guns and stuff.
quite childish.
but whatever.
we had fun.
:D
oh my...
i've got a whole mountain of tutorials to do.
and lecture topics to catch up on!
this is so horrifying!!!
*screams*



this week seems extremely short.
i guess it's good.
:D
i've got so many things to say.
but i don't know where to start.
and i've got a feeling i can't stop if i start.
haha.
maybe i talk too much.
oh shut up shandy.
i realised i started blabbering to monks on msn when her window opened.
and it was tiring to type.
cos i just had to many things to say.
another characteristic of ENFPs?
haha.
no idea.
i think i owe all the teachers work.
it's just how much i owe.
:D

night night.


shandy just completed her dumb GPP!
THREE CHEERS FOR SHANDY!
hiphiphurray!!!!!!
:D
i spent the WHOLE afternoon doing GPP.
warning: GPP IS EVIL.
but i went to cut my hair before that.
so it makes me slightly happier.
:D
had college day yesterday.
we all agreed that it was one of the most boring and sian college day.
all s09 did was slack and play basketball.
we did have some fun with the blue hairsprays though.
:)
but the food was a rip off.
and the weather was extremely hot.
so we all stayed till 8 to clear up and stuff.
was dead tired by then.
:(
but it was quite fun.
like crapping with my darling classmates and stuff.
:D
by the way, i haven't done any homework.
which sort of means i'm so dead.
:(
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i'm drowning in homework.
anyway.
i spoke to ivan today.
it's been a million years since i've spoken to this 'sister' of mine.
realised i do miss speaking to him a lot.
and i think he's matured ALOT.
remember when we used to crap with each other while playing badminton and stuff.
and i like to laugh at his colour blindness (oops).
it feels weird to see each other grow up.
and i'm really glad to see him take up the position as camp commmandant this year!
i'm proud of you sister!!
:D
i wanna do camp games this year!
but...
seems like the amount of school commitment doesn't permit me to.
guess i'll just have to pray about it.
i'm really glad i've got a group of extremely faithful and reliable friends in the YF.
they will constantly ask me how i am and stuff.
and they'll go all the way to help me.
they find it perfectly okay for me to whine to them.
not forgetting really good advice they always give.
it really feels like home.
no.
it IS home.
thanks guys.
there must be a reason for me to be in this YF.
:D






we.....
come from YF famous in BB
come from a very special family!
fight for forgiveness
fight for mercy
fight for our Lord God Almighty!
:D

i'm not sure what i should write today.
write bout my day AGAIN?
i think my life is simply boring.
not that it isn't good.
just that routine doesn't quite suit me.
i'm starting to get sick of the mundane life in NJ.
it's really boring.
all you do is homework and study.
well, not like i do them.
so that means more sleeping time.
but it's not as if i stay wide awake during lectures and tutorials the next day.
it's like sec 4 days replay.
just that it's far worse.
and since i sleep during lessons and don't do homework
i obviously don't know what everyone is saying.
i'm like in a separate world.
everyone outsdie my world is mugging furiously.
i'm the only one in my own little bubble living my own life.
it's so weird.
it's not like i don't wanna do my homework.
i just can't stand doing it.
i seem fine on the outside.
but seriously.
i think life in NJ is quite sucky.
i've only got one sane reason why i chose NJ.
cos it's near my house.
oh wells.
i've got no idea what's gotten into me.
guess it's just the 'time of the night'.
anyway.
if i had complained to steph bout sleeping too much
she'll ask,"shandy, are you diabetic?!"
ah.
i miss her loads.
it's been a million years since she's disappeared to the US.
and there has been no news since.
oh where oh where is my darling twin?


shandy is super tired!
just came back from CAAL at the childcare.
they really can suck energy!!
was super dead after the visit.
my darling baby didn't come today.
:(
had half day yesterday!
but it was like no half day la.
had to paint house banner for college day.
FOUR girls paint ONE WHOLE BANNER.
it's a miracle we survived.
and we've proved one thing.
there aren't any guys in our class.
fortunately for us, we had help from a very nice guy from another class.
:D
oh ya.
i had a deep cut on my thumb while trying to open the paint cans.
my poor thumb.
:(
and it was quite a disaster yesterday.
although it was quite fun.
:D
i almost entered the male's toilet to fill a bucket with water.
until i saw a bunch of guys standing outside the toilet.
super embarassing.
but oh wells.
we proved that we can survive WITHOUT GUYS.
cos the banner turned out perfectly fine.
s09's GIRL POWER!
:D
anyway.
the amount of homework i've accumulated it extremely horrifying.
sigh.
:(


oh.
i'm finally posting.
opened this window last night.
but i somehow couldn't bring my little fingers to type anything.
i must proudly announce that i'm starting to make an effort to clear my file.
it's not nice to carry such a thick file around.
esp during earthweek.
my GRAND PROJECT shall start with BUYING a pretty pretty file.
but since poor shandy's stuck home all day
i left that GREAT mission to my darling brother.
well.
i trust his taste.
at least i'm convinced that he's more than 10 times more artistic than me.
i hope.
:D
i spent my whole day bioing.
it's disgusting.
bio trial spa debrief early in the morning.
and some freak friend of mine gave me false hopes by telling me the side gate will be open.
in the end...
I STILL HAD TO TRUDGE UP HILLCREST TO GET TO SCHOOL!!
and...
the sun was horrid cos it was around 10 in the morning.
grrrrrr.
and after that...
i spent my whole afternoon trying REALLY hard to understand DNA and genomics.
seriously.
it sucks.
and that's one out of three topics that i need to understand.
oh by the way
one WHOLE afternoon is still not enough.
i haven't completed DNA and genomics.
:D
my brain is now oversaturated with bio.
eeeeeeeeeew.
oh yes.
i'm suppposed to blog bout the week.
interact sold chocolates this week!
and we have them ALL SOLD OUT!
fortunately.
:D
to all those who bought cos it tasted yummy,
THANK YOU.
to all those who bought cos you wanted to help those in cebu,
THANK YOU.
to all those who bought cos you gave us face,
THANK YOU TOO!!
:D
i love s09!
they were our biggest customers.
thanks girls + kenny, yangzhi and kenneth!
:D
mr mennon bought too!
and this auntie and kungyin were nice too.
cos they asked us to "keep the change"
haha.
i'm so easily bought over.
:D
half day on mon!
and labour day on thurs!
college day off in lieu too!!
whoooooooohoooooooooo.
all OG 2ers!!
let's go for an outing soon!!
the outing numbers have been dwindling ever since JAE set in.
this can't be!!
we must be the legendary OG who still goes out to party.
:D
so respond enthusiastically when we call for an outing k!!


awwww.
i'm suddenly missing ameliakoh and germainechay.
and all the times we had on court.
:(
i'm so random.
i miss the ppl.
i don't miss the sport.
okay fine.
i won't mind playing it recreationally.
NJ has made me dislike competitive badminton.
no idea why.
:D


s09 went for CAAL today!
it was super fun.
:D
we went to a childcare.
the kids were all really adorable.
but they took away all my energy.
i'm super tired now.
:(
the journey there was tiring though.
pam and i couldn't keep our balance on the bus.
(explains why she's my hubby :D)
my 4 inch thick file made it worse.
and a lady actually offered to carry it for me.
haha.
MAYBE i should clear my file.
anyway.
math test today was an interesting experience.
i'm quite prepared to go for math remedials if they ever have one.
many s09ers agreed that it'll be a class outing to math remedials.
:D
hopefully it won't be neopets taking the remedials.
i think it'll be a total waste of time.
off to bed.
it'll decrease the probability of me sleeping during lectures tmr by 10%
the other 90% will depend on the lecturer.
:D

THERE'S MATH TEST TMR!!!
i JUST understood MI and summation.
like...
1 hour ago.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
obviously i can't do the dumb and complicated questions.
but just hope i won't fail too badly.
can totally imagine neopets staring at me with those evil neopets eyes of his.
i'm supposed to sleep.
but i can't sleep right after doing math.
i'll get nightmares.
tested and proven.
like a trillion times.
:D
so i'll just post.
no, i won't whine.
this darling lalaland of mine WON'T turn into a trash place.
interact sold chocolates today to raise funds!
was quite fun.
:D
anyway.
i realised that however hard i try, i still can't escape physics.
chemistry is now FLOODING with physics.
oh wells.
sometimes i regret taking bio.
thinking that maybe physics will be better.
but nah.
comparing disgusting DNA with physics.
i'd rather die in the hands of DNA.
:D
by the way.
i still have no idea how to use my GC properly.
it's just this fat huge thing that doesn't relate to me.
IT DOESN'T SPEAK MY LANGUAGE!!
seriously.
if it does, i'll be ultra freaked out.
haha.





math test tmr.
napha test tmr.
FINALLY, CAAL tmr.
only the last one is nice.
the other two suck.
:D

I NEED TO SCREAM.
my frigging computer cranked up.
i lost all my amendments in my bloody PI.
damn it.
i'm extremely frustrated now.
luckily my brother is forsaking dota to let me use the other com.
or else i'll start a killing spree.
and now i can't frigging remember what amendments i made for my PI.
damn it again.

whining time.
again.
shandy is not gonna be able to survive this week.
THERE'S MATH TEST!!!!!!
loyal readers of my darling lalaland blog will know that i suck BIG TIME at H2 math.
:D
topics tested on includes MI and summation!!!!
*horrors*
those are the two topics i totally don't get.
(well MI is cos there are super lots of summation questions in there)
and i haven't studied.
seriously.
how is a lousy-at-math person gonna squeeze 3 months of math into her head in 3 days?!!
i suppose it's humanly impossible.
and as zhi xin has said.
we must be prepared for the test.
be PREPARED TO FAIL.
finally she's thinking logically and analytically.
i think we're all motivated to fail.
we can't help it.
our tutor is so motivating.
anyway.
enough of whining.
it's really sad to see my blog turn into a whine cellar.
where it stores all my whining.
haha.
my darling lalaland is SUPPOSED to tell bout my life.
and it's depressing to see my life revolving only around sad stories of tutorials and tests.
maybe i should just stop whining here.
but there's no more beancurd and khooahma etc to let me whine to.
guys.
i miss ya!!
:(
alrights.
back to homework.
ameliakoh is right.
i've become a permanent resident of muggerland.
maybe i should change this blog to shelovesmuggerland.blogspot.com
nah.
i love lalaland too much.
:D






hanging on to all that i believe in.

it's been a million years since i've posted.
been really busy.
:(
got bio test this week!!!
*screams*
i hope i'll survive this week.
i got my MBTI results.
i'm an ENFP!
extravert, intuitive, feeling and perceiving
:D
the interpretation says we are "sometimes being victimized by less caring individuals"
I AGREE.
i was totally victimized by LIANG SI HUI today.
shao nai nai!
you're a 'less caring individual'
haha.
nah.
you're just plain EVIL.
big bully!!
and you PS me for SOCCER.
can't believe it.
boo.
off to mug bio.
crap.
it really sucks.
may the lysosomes digest bio!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.





the clouds love me.
:D

PI is killing me.
i've got freaking 116 words to cancel out.
super sian.
that's why i'm blogging now.
cos PI is just SO SUCKY.
:D
went for interact today again!
we did science experiments today.
quite fun.
but i was SUPER tired.
there was this boy in my group!
his name is dunnowhat dunnowhat.
but we all call him Monster.
so cute!
he's really nice and sweet.
more gentlemanly than yangzhi can.
there's something about NJ guys.
they are just not gentlemanly.
i thought it was only s09.
but shao nai nai complained bout her class too.
haha.
oh ya.
back to Monster.
he keeps saying,"eh, i from sa lak kau one k!"
(that's a name of a gang. like 369 in hokkien)
WAHAHAHAHA.
super funny.
but he was really willing to share food and sweets with us!
awwwwwwwwwww.
see.
better than NJ guys.
haha.
by the way.
project chocolates seem to be going in the right path.
:D
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.





flowers.
daffodils.
green fields.


realised i haven't been posting.
probably busy.
or just plain lazy.
another week has past.
had chem va yesterday.
we were super unprepared.
but thank God it didn't turn out horrible.
i think i'm seriously lagging in homework.
realised the bio lecturer speaks a language that's alien to me.
math too.
:(
I DID MY 2.4KM ON TUES!!!!
I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!
got a D.
that means i still stand a chance to get a silver.
which also means i'm an inch away from PE remedials.
oh wells.
hopefully life will get better.
which i doubt though.
ah.
whatever.




i'm hurting in the end.
i go there again.
cos it was beautiful.

today was quite a bad day for shandy.
the weather was super hot.
and i was quite moody.
got PSed by my dumbass friend.
dropped my darling sleek and pretty phone for the first time.
i hope it's the last :]
ate dinner super late although i was ultra hungry.
but now i'm full :]
tried painting styrofoam balls at 11pm at night for chemistry VA.
total failure.
no wonder i'm a science student.
:D
amelia koh is dead right.
i sound like a frigging nerd now.
all my posts are about homework.
darling shandy.
GET A LIFE.


i'm feeling very...
random.
was suddenly reminded of the pretty sunset i saw on the plane 2 years back.
and the absolutely amazing night sky up on mt ophir.
i think i've been deprived of pretty stuffs for a very long time.
would i rather be blind or deaf?
obviously none.
but i'll choose deaf if i really have to.
cos i'm already half deaf.
tone deaf.
haha.
i really feel like shopping.
rahhs.
i need to go shopping.
got so so so so many things i need to get.
and i need a holiday.
like overseas.
ah seriously shandy.
why are you dreaming?




IT'S FRIDAY!!!
wheeeeeeeeeee.
that means more SLEEP.
:D
there's interact scheme tmr.
all the way at admiralty.
sobs.
early in the morning!!
oh wells.
hope the fun will make up for sleep time.
:D
as usual
this is yet another full-of-homework weekend.
which doesn't make it a weekend.
except for the sleeping part.
by the way.
i met up with khooweiwey today!!!
ice creamed at island creamery.
:D
missed her loads.
she's ever so prim and proper.
except for the skirt.
HEADPREFECT wears SHORTSKIRTS.
:D
then met up with monks for dinner at coro.
missed her loads too!
we have nothing to do.
so we just walked around.
AMAZINGLY we found cool stuffs at coro.
like this wooden stamp shop.
really cool.
but damn ex la.
and the lady was quite hostile.
we saw this mini carousel too!!
extremely pretty.
awwwww.
i feel like shopping now!!!
:D
i'm still lacking ALOT of stuff.
okay fine.
maybe only a few.
but that gives me enough reason to go shopping yea?
:D





down with cough.
feels sucky.
boo.

i'm supposed to be sleeping by now.
lest i become a scary monster tmr.
:D
but i just did math.
so that means i can't sleep or i'll get dreams and nightmares.
if i get a nightmare
that probably means i dreamt of you.
haha.
kidding.
TMR'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO.
hear the excitement.
actually i don't know why i'm excited too.
haha.
by the way.
i think neopets has found out that i didn't do my tutorials.
OOPS.
that's cos it's MI.
and MI is related to summation.
like DUH i can do summation.
i LOVE summation.
summation ROCKS.
had interact today.
wanted to go watch the soccer match after the meeting.
but had to stay back and stuff.
i guess we ended bout 6.
but thank goodness it was pouring.
so the match was probably cancelled.
and i didn't miss any cool stuff.
YAY.
but i got really wet though.
I DIDN'T GET SELECTED FOR THE CEBU OCIP TRIP!!
sobs.
mourn with me.
ah whatever.
it doesn't matter that much.
haha.
did chem prac today.
for ONCE i APPRECIATE st marg's chem lab.
cos at least we have cool-looking and FUNCTIONAL apparatus.
and they are CLEANER and PRETTIER.
MRS LIM.
PLEASE TAKE ME FOR CHEM PRAC.
I MISS THE NICE APPARATUS.
doing chem prac in NJ is like going back to stone age.
you use the primitive way of doing VA.
yes.
fine.
i'm yakking again.
ah.
my darling yakking lalaland blog.
:D

rushed PI like mad last night.
which resulted in a grumpy shandy in the morning.
:(
PE was first period.
which made all the grumpyness even worse.
then was math lecture.
obviously i fell asleep.
waking up only to hear the lecturer say
"this is the most impt part of the lecture.
if you all missed it, that's too bad for you."
LIKE THANKS.
then the whole day was SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
but i got quite high after school.
stayed back to do chem VA.
made the super cute molecue.
:D
after that i had a crap talking session with tai tai and zhixin.
totally lame.
oh.
by the way.
THERE WON'T BE LESSONS TMR!
joy to the world!!!!
shandy is extremely happy.
cos it gives me one more day to do my homework.
which of course i'm seriously lagging in.
seriously.
don't you just love the council elects?
:D
wheeeee.
off to do homework.
oh and weiwey.
sorry to PS you.
but my DM is just too evil.
she'll mince me
fry me
then eat me.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
sorry ya?
:D




i'm a NJ student!
I MUST MUG!!!
:D


oh my goodness.
i can't believe it.
i'm alive!!
homework hasn't killed me.
although i strongly believe some part of me has already been killed.
so if you see me on monday
i don't think you're hallucinating.
but do go see a shrink anyway.
cos you still need to.
:D
but i've still got somemore homework.
like some lame GP journal.
you're supposed to write about your contributions for that lesson.
obviously i've got nothing to write.
i'm glad i'm born with a hidden talent.
crapping.
:D
oh plus MORE bio tutorials.
and MORE math tutorials.
which i shouldn't try anyway.
cos i'm quite confident i'll be stuck at the first question.
:D
ah.
i'm smiling even when i don't know how to do my work.
shandy must be crazy.
woots.


homework kills.
it's worse than mas selamat.
somebody save me!!!!!!
kill homework first before it kills me!!!
sobs.
while ex 4E6ers were at funorama having fun and catching up with each other
i was at home rushing homework.
sobs.
sometimes i regret not doing my tutorials
cos i'll end up chionging them when the teacher asks for it.
but only sometimes.
and it's amazing how i never seem to learn from experience.
:D
it's fifth sunday tmr.
by tradition
the YFers will go for an outing.
they're going for sushi party tmr!!
and...
sobs.
cos i'll be stuck with PW...
and bio...
and GP...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i need to go shopping.
i need to go play.
i need to watch movies.
i need to talk rubbish.
i need so many things...
i just don't need homework!
but i don't have all those things.
i only have homework.
:(


horrid week.
oh.
it's friday.
this dreadful week has finally ended.
but i guess the weekend that's coming is FAR worse.
seriously.
this sucks.
the amount of homework is practically enough to bury me 10 ft under.
don't bother looking for me on mon.
i'll probably be dead by then.
if you do see me
go see a shrink.
you're hallucinating.
anyway.
i went back to st marg's today!!
:D
it was their science day.
hey girls!
we left our mark.
all the stations were the same as last time.
can't deny the fact that we rock.
:D
and i finally got to eat black pepper cheese toast!
haven't eaten it for ages.
still has this schooly taste that i really miss.
and i miss the western stall auntie too.
:D
oh no.
i really dread homework.
faints.
by the way.
i love what my pw teacher said.
"Princesses don't share chairs."
:D




shandy's feeling rather nostalgic now.

HAPPY EASTER!!
:D
as much as it was a time of celebration and stuff
i couldn't help but think.
if i weren't a believer.
sitting in that sanctuary
listening to the message
will i be convinced that it's true?
well i can't say for sure.
but after all that You've brought me through.
i can't deny the fact that my faith is real.
and i thank You.
others may think all these little incidences are insignificant
or just mere coincidences.
but i know for sure.
You were behind them all.
and i thank You.
You promised that You'll never leave me
nor forsake me
and i know it's true.
You've taught me bout trust and reliance.
i know my life is in You.
it isn't gonna be a bed of roses.
but You said You'll be there for me
so i'll take Your word for it.
and i thank You.
:)



were it not for grace
i can tell you where i'd be
wandering down some pointless road to nowhere
with my salvation up to me
the battles i'll face
forever running but losing the race
were it not for grace

yesterday was Good Friday.
and i thank God for Good Friday.
:D
EASTER TMR!!
it's the reason why we celebrate!
:D
and my dear S09ers.
i know i've got some explanation to do!!!
i went to vivo with my family for lunch after good friday service.
was SUPPOSED to go home to complete holiday homework.
but i CONINCIDENTALLY met S02 at vivo.
and so xian fong was nice and invited me to join them for a movie.
homework wasn't exactly nice.
so i thought a movie would be fine.
sorry guys!
the meeting with S02 was totally UNPLANNED.
I'M NOT A S09 TRAITOR!!!
i love S09 WHOLEHEARTEDLY.
:D
it was just really suay of me to meet you guys at marina.
i felt super bad k!
sorry guys.
:(
anyway.
enrichment week is coming to an end.
that means relaxation is OVER.
oh crap.



shandy was AMAZINGLY able to crawl out of bed this morn.
:D
so she went to school!
which was not part of the plan.
my knees are feeling better now.
but they still hurt.
boo.
and...
other places are starting to hurt now!
no.
it's not what you're thinking.
my butt is absolutely fine.
:D
enrichment week wasn't exactly enriching.
cos i didn't complete my holiday homework.
and i didn't study for chem and econs test.
DIE LOR.
that's it man.
boo.
no fun.
and sexuality education talk today was no fun at all.
RATHER boring.
all i did was groan and stone.
quite FULFILLING.
by the way.
tmr's good friday!!
well there's a reason why it's GOOD.
:D


I'M IN GREAT PAIN.
my knees are hurting extremely badly from cycling.
we cycled about 40km today.
super tiring.
it's amazing how i'm still alive and blogging now.
:D
went to IMH after that.
ABIT boring la.
but it's a NICE environment.
if your children throw you out next time
and you've got dementia
you can consider IMH.
or if you think life is meaningless and thought of suicide
maybe IMH can rekindle life's hope.
haha.
i'm so crappy.
i'm in pain.
ah.
PAIN.
PAIN.
PAIN.
it hurts really badly.
:(
how am i gonna crawl out of bed tmr?!!
faints.
i have officially changed to my WHINING MODE.
those who miss my whining can talk to me on MSN.
:D



received PW tasknotes first thing in the morning.
SIAN.
SUPER SIAN.
SUPER DUPER SIAN.
but the enrichment programme for the day was fun.
:D
went for a perfumes and aspirin workshop at SP.
i made my own perfume!
i proudly name her...
ELATION.
you'll feel extremely happy after smelling it.
oh no.
haha.
i make it sound as if it's sniffing glue.
no k!
this is HIGH CLASS PERFUME.
i made my very own aspirin crystals too!
:D
but it smells like vinegar.
eeeeew.
looks pretty though.
like small shiny fish scales.
YAY.
it's ebroadcast the whole day tmr.
hope it'll be fun.
OH YA!
i just found out today that i've got my test dates wrong!
and i'm super glad i found out.
:D
cos...
THERE ISN'T GONNA BE A MATH TEST!!
:D
and i though bio test was on 28 mar.
it's 28 april actually!!
woooohooooo!!
lalalalaalala....



homework time.
boo.

I CAN'T SIGN IN TO MSN!!!!!!!
WHY???!!!!
argh.
oh wells.
can't believe the holidays are over.
boohoo.
OBVIOUSLY i haven't completed my holiday homework.
:D
lalalalalala.
i've got no idea why i'm so glad i haven't done them.
:D
shandy must be HIGH!
shandy wants to go shopping now!
anyway.
enrichment week starts tmr!
i've got nothing on till 1pm.
sian.
i watched step up 2 just now!
:D
actually...
okay only la.
just that the main actor and actress quite good looking.
oh and i love andie's white dress!!
:D
told you i'm desperate to go shopping.
haha.



ah.
i saw a rat AGAIN today.
like jumping out of a public bin.
disgusting.
but not as disgusting as the one i saw at ECP.
had interact camp yesterday.
it was fine i guess.
except for SOME parts.
which were like totally out of point.
NJ's field provides a good view of stars!
the night sky was really pretty!
:D
came home after camp today.
slept for a long long long while.
felt so good!
:D
oh.
i wanna complain!
shao nai nai PS tai tai and qian jin for interact camp!
boo.
:(
oh.
by the way.
i've still got LOADS of homework to be completed.
man.
it sucks.
big time.
bad bad homework.
homework is EVIL.
thankfully, there's enrichment week.
:D

okay.
whining session.
goodness me.
everything sucks.
can't do cells.
can't do summation.
can't do mathematical induction.
LIKE WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??!!!
can't find my econs tutorial too.
*faints*
and i've got interact camp EARLY IN THE MORNING tmr.
got to trudge up dumb hillcrest with a ultra gigantic bag.
*sob*
haven't done the self-learning for trigo.
seriously.
and there's BCME test the week after enrichment week.
sucky?
certainly.
my beloved march holidays.




SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(

i was halfway doing chemistry tutorials.
but...
i've decided to post!
by the way...
yesterday, today and tomorrow are...
OPHIR DAYS!!!
tammie, priscilla, puiwah and nat...
happy 2nd aniversary!
haha.
i feel out-of-point.
today was SUPER SIAN.
woke up close to noon.
then i TRIED to do homework.
yea.
TRIED.
i'm becoming homeworkphobic.
i wanna catch MOVIES!!!
i wanna go SHOPPING!!!
feeling uber restless.
chemistry project in school tmr.
even more sian.
i miss secondary school.
when homework was super chicken.
eh. wait.
didn't i used to complain about homework last time too?
oh.
haha.
so the problem lies with me.
not homework.
:D




I LOVE CHEMISTRY!
MUACK!!
crap.
self delusion isn't working.
haha.

IT'S THE HOLIDAYS!

NO WONDER IT'S THE YEAR OF THE RAT.
i saw a rat again today!
a DEAD one to be exact.
ultra super duper extremely disgusting.
anyway.
zhi xin just asked me about econs essay!!!!
*gasps*
like i haven't even started la.
thanks.
i think i'll drown in homework or something.
wait.
do i even KNOW what homework i have?
no.
simply no idea.
:D
plus i've got interact camp on fri and sat.
oh wells.
hope it's gonna be fun.
and the tai tai, shao nai nai and qian jin can talk till morn again.
oh.
plus yangzhi who says he can OWN all the soccer guys.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
but homework???!!!!
ah.
i struggle with homework almost EVERY holiday.
it's like a tradition la.
oh.
except for last year's december hols.
:D
YA!
and there's chem project too.
plus self study trigo.
doesn't life just suck?
yea.
BIG TIME!
:D
but life's good when shandy goes SHOPPING!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
sale at espirit!!!
bought 2 blouses today.
so exciting.
:D:D





I'M AN NJ STUDENT!
I MUST MUG!!
okay.
off to watch tv.
:D

shandy's SUPER tired.
went for class and OG02 outing.
fun.
but TIRING.
my butt hurts from cycling.
:(
by the way.
i saw a stupid big fat rat at ECP's macs today.
ultra disgusting.
oh.
liktak FINALLY learnt how to ride a bike.
:D
OG outing was great too.
cycled and played funny games at the beach.
:D
crap.
i'm super tired.
can't think of what to blog about.
ah.
whatever la.



wood block.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
SENSE THE JOY?
:D:D
OG 02 and class outing tmr.
:D:D
get to see EVERYONE!
i predict MAJOR camwhoring tmr.
:D
met monkey at Island Creamery today!
had fun!
it seems as though it's been a MILLION years since we've met.
haha.
yea.
and i wanna go back SMSS too.
whooo.
SCIENCE DAY'08 IS COMING!!
so cool.
i'm itching to go back and kachiao them.
:D
will probably never forget those days planning it with my darling frens.
it kinda sucked.
but it was kinda fun.
haha.
anyway.
i think my march hols are burnt.
but i won't complain so much la.
cos i think some are in a worst state then me.
haha.
but must start mugging.
I'M A NJ STUDENT! I MUST MUG!!
:D




nerd at heart <3

oh.
so i'm a 'qian jin xiao jie' according to si hui.
ameline is 'tai tai' and sihui is 'shao nai nai'
haha.
we can totally form the aristocrats of interact club.
:D
so cute.
we can go for facial, high tea and manicure together.
:D:D
and when we feel like it
we can go for spa and go do our hair.
i want big pretty curls!
:D
LUXURIOUS.
anyway.
back to REALITY.
WAS chionging bio prac report.
then i realised i've got insufficient data.
sobs.
so i gave up.
:D
gonna chiong tmr instead.
steph is probably on the plane now.
:(
i'll miss her.
gonna meet weiwey tmr!
heard she's no longer to LAW BY LAW head prefect.
MAYBE HER SKIRT IS SHORTER THAN MINE!!
haha.
i'm tarnishing her reputation here.
:D


another precious weekend just ZOOMED past like that!



haven't been posting.
saw some stupid spammer on my tag board.
don't know what/who on earth is it.
ah.
whatever.
had interact camp last night.
well.
games weren't exactly fanastic.
though the 'ghost' in the toilet gave me quite a bad scare.
haha.
stayed up with yangzhi, ameline and sihui till 4am.
talked a whole load of stuff.
:D
but the night was BAD.
slept on hard tables.
and it RAINED!!
froze my butt off.
didn't have a proper blanket.
:(
the morning was cold as well.
and we played wet games!
SUPER DUPER COLD.
si hui, ameline and i caught the NJ-AC soccer match.
quite funny.
quite amusing.
we were like 3 out-of-point girls there.
screaming at NJ goals and booing at AC goals.
seeing spongebobs running around.
rather entertaining.
oh.
by the way.
NJ won.
yay.
i'm supposed to do homework now.
OBVIOUSLY i can't bring myself to do it.
ah.
it's the time of the night again.
this feeling sucks quite a bit.




i'm missing the old S09.
but i guess we'll have to start accepting the new one.


TODAY'S A HAPPY DAY!!!!
lala...
lalala...
lalalala...
so HIGH.
woooots.
i LOVE standing on the LEFT side of the parade ground.
:D
the RIGHT side sucks.
oh.
i'm so glad i escaped sharon phua's claws today.
phew.
oh my goodness!
it's a BEAUTIFUL DAY.
:D





i don't think it was luck.
and i'm glad it wasn't.
:D

argh.
feeling really anxious now.
mr yeo will tell us if we're going back to S09 tmr.
crap.
this feeling sucks quite a bit.
no.
a lot in fact.
don't know if i'll be able to sleep tonight.
i'll really miss S09.
played basketball with S09 today.
ate with them.
studied with them.
crapped with them.
totally can't imagine days ahead without them.
:(
moreover S06 seems like a scary place to be.
ppl who don't do tutorials can't fit in.
ppl who don't mug can't fit in.
ppl who are not freakily smart can't fit in.
ah.
that sounds like me.
don't think i'll be able to survive there.





it feels all so morbid now.

BAD DAY.
i got a shock of my life today.
like real big shit.
I GOT TRANSFERRED TO S06!!!!!!!!!
like WHY???!!?!!!
@$@$%$&%&#!%@#
and i'm not even in aqua.
landed my butt in solaris.
sobs.
super duper depressing.
hopefully mr yeo will agree to let zhixin and i go back
TO WHERE WE BELONG.
the spirit of S09 lives!!!!!!
i'm crossing my fingers
i'm crossing my toes.
i REALLY hope to remain in S09.
it's like THE PLACE to be.
and S06 is some mugger class la.
OH GREAT.
it's not STRESSFUL
it's ENRICHING.
yea right.




it's not just a name.
it's the soul.

my uniforms are ready!
:D
but i'll only wear them when we NEED to.
or else quite extra.
and i think i look weird in my greys.
:(
still love my polka dots.
i wanna watch movies!!
dying to watch death note 3.
lik tak recommended Juno too.
awwwww.
I WANNA WATCH!!!
anyway.
chem test on mon.
still don't get some parts of electronic configuration.
alvin from ip3 said the test is SUPER tough.
:(
and i STILL can't do summation.
it's funny how i'm not bothering to do anything bout it.
:D
whatever man.
i LOVE to procrastinate.


red wine + great music = tipsy me.

I SURVIVED ROADRUN!!!
yay.
and...
AQUA WON FIRST!
seriously.
i really don't know how that happened.
went for a mini OG02 outing after roadrun.
with special appearances by ameline.
ate and walked.
a pity it was last minute.
so not a lot of ppl turned up.
allicia says next OG outing at east coast park!
yay.
hopefully there'll be one.
:D
oh crap.
i'm super broke after eating out so many days this week.
i'll live on bread and water.
damn.
ming han just msged.
his appeal didn't get through.
i'll miss him loads!!
no one to share haribo with during lectures.
no one to make fun of the bucktooth cat high guy with me.
no one to eat ba chor mee with me.
oh crap.
i'm starting to miss everyone who left S09 again.
:(





the smell of rain.

today practically zoomed past.
like WOAH.
i wanted to go for dance party!
but i didn't.
:(
went to watch P.S. I LOVE YOU instead.
super sweet.
super romantic.
super touching.
awwwww.
it was not bad.
like most of the clothes hilary swank wore was not bad.
:D
love the shoes.
wanted to go for dance party after the movie.
but figured out the side gate will be shut already.
lazy to walk.
awwww.
and lik tak made me feel guilty bout not going.
:(
LIK TAK!
THE SPIRIT OF 08S09 LIVES!!!!!
so don't emo can?




i've got a rash on my back.
SUPER ITCHY.
drats.

today was a quite sad day.

I CAN'T DO MY HOMEWORK!
zero motivation.
zero energy.
got class BBQ later.
homework suddenly seems so unimportant.
:D
forget it.
i'll do it tmr.
that's if tmr ever comes.
i'm meeting steph later!
my 'same birthday' twin!
awwww.
miss her.
:D
it's a still sunday afternoon.
then it's back to school again.
:(
hope they'll cut us some slack cos of postings.
time to dress up to go out!



MY DEMAND:
buy me a castle in europe.
i want the biggest and most luxurious one.
must be accompanied with a breathtaking scenery.
not forgetting my own shopping centre.
:D


i'm bothered.
not exactly happy bout that.




it's time i learnt about reliance.
no.
PRACTISE reliance.

was yet another tiring day.
my eye bags are SCARY.
ah.
maybe someone could get me SKII for Vday.
haha.
should nap later.
:D
mr neo didn't come today!
although we all rejoiced and headed straight to the canteen
i think my topic on summation is screwed.
he must really hate our class.
he's always on MC!
oh.
by the way.
it's chinese new year.
why do i tend to be so UNLUCKY?
i have to take part in some stupid chinese essay competition.
cos they drew lots.
and...
LUCKY ME.
and i'm still not done with 377A!!!
:(
ah.
my books are calling out to me.
dreadful.




it's payback time.

i'm really tired now.
but thought i'll just post a short one.
:D
i was already dozing off in the first period today.
super sleepy.
then had PE too.
ran 1.7km.
LIKE FORTUNATELY.
we were supposed to do twice of that
in preparation for the coming roadrun.
seriously.
for me,
i call it the NJ roadWALK.
cos i don't intend to run.
on that day.
surely everyone will be so busy running they won't bother bout me.
:D
i promise not to block the way.
:D
was really restless for the rest of the day.
couldn't sit still.
much less do homework properly.
met up with monks for dinner though.
:D
it was probably the best part of the day.
miss her loads.
though the last time i saw her was during CNY.
awwww...
i'm still fretting over "keep 377A!"
although it SEEMS easier than "repeal 377A!"
it's actually not.
haha.
so my dear SJI fren...
we didn't bully you k!
:D
yawns.
time for lalaland.
nites.




another chance forsaken.

OH MY GOODNESS.
i should SERIOUSLY blog CAREFULLY next time.
like the SJI guy i suaned previously actually saw that post!!
*GASPS!*
okay.
fine.
i MUST say something NICE now.
or i won't be able to survive in NJ.
i'll probably have the whole ex SJI population ostracize me or something.
okay.
THE SJI GUY IS NICE.
cos he switched stands with ning and i.
even before he read my previous post.
he was really willing to switch.
awwww.
so NICE.
AND...
he didn't hold it against me for calling him ungentlemanly.
he also says that "SJI ppl are real nice!"
okay.
i won't disagree with that.
i mean like i have to say something NICE right?
:D
i must say he put in A LOT of effort to search for my blog.
like whoever goes searching "shandywong" on search engines?
GOOD EFFORT XIANFONG!
:D:D
oh.
many of you may ask...
how did the BRILLANT SJI guy know that i blogged bout him?
THANKS TO WAYNE OF COURSE.
:D
like thanks wayne.
SERIOUSLY.
you watch out man.
"i'm a soccer player! i must keep fit!"
that's it for you.
evil monkey.



to all SJI guys who saw that post:
i really wanna delete that portion.
but...
your fellow josephian says
"SJI guys are so nice they won't do anything lol"
so...
don't blame me!
blame him!!
:D:D
kidding la.


this is a REALLY long post.
cos i've got to tell EVERYONE how NICE SJI guys are.
okay la.
fine.
they are QUITE nice.

third day of CNY.
quite sian.
ate a lot of rubbish today.
aunty vicki was practially stuffing me with food.
love her loads.
:D
homework.
homework.
homework.
oh wells.
got loads of them to do.
many of which i'm still clueless about.
got chem.
quite blur.
got bio.
even blurrer.
got math.
extremely blur.
don't think i've got time to stand up for s'pore's gay community.
"repeal 377A!"
ah.
i actually don't support it.
it's against my beliefs.
but...
the SJI guy in my grp was SO NICE to let ning and i do it.
and he of course taking the easier stand to reject the repeal.
yes.
SJI.
HOW GENTLEMANLY.
don't you just ADORE them?
:D

my anti-SJI campaign.
S *clap X4*
J *clap X4*
I *clap X4*
SJI sucks.
:D

Oops.
shandy's SO MEAN.
ah.
but i don't think any SJI guys visit this page.
so it doesn't matter.
:D
if they do.
then they are SNEAKY ppl.
wait.
was mr low from SJI?
i hope he isn't.
okay.
he didn't see this part.
he should be too busy giving out angpaos.
:D




CNY has been great so far.
food
fun
and more food!
oh ya.
not forgetting angpaos!
seriously.
i can't believe i've gotta do homework.
totally kills the festive mood!!
but oh wells.
not like i have a choice.
:(
got to research on some homosexual topic for GP.
sian.
ning said it's not easy!
"repeal 377A!"
bleah.
:(
when everyone's having fun tossing yusheng and eating nuts
i'll be doing homework!!!
boo.
and there's badminton on mon.
CAN'T IMAGINE.
it's gonna be TERRIBLE!!
groans.
let's just focus on the CNY part now.
don't wanna be bothered by BAD stuff.
:D



i hate to say bye.
but it's homework time.
:(

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

i spent my countdown in the toilet while bathing.
how cool.
haha.
today was A BIT sian.
spring cleaning + preparation of food was tiring.
:(
but cleaning my room gave me a great sense of satisfaction.
i practically ended up disinfecting my room.
cleaned my stuffed toys too!


my 'Three Musketeers'!
love them a millions!!

despite my RATHER busy day
i watched stardust!
like again.
haha.
it's my third or fourth time watching it.
but i still LOVE it!!
SUPER SWEET.
SUPER ROMANTIC.
awwww...
haha.
suits the coming V day mood by the way.
it's gonna be a super busy day tmr.
but i think the angpaos will make it all NICE.
:D
plus all the festive mood and stuff.
and food!!!
yum yum.




then it's back to school again.


it's tuesday.
that means we had PE.
did a beep test.
or whatever they call it.
was not nice at all.
to make things worse
the four of us were desperately looking for a toilet to pee before PE.
and there wasn't one sane toilet that could flush!
finally we found one!
but...
we were ultra late for PE.
and so we had to 'repay' that 20 mins lost.
GUESS WHAT?
2km.
*sobs*
I SURVIVED THOUGH!!
haha.
just had reunion dinner.
ate loads.
so i guess the 2km run was wasted.
i'm so full!
how to go to bed now?!!
hmmmm.
maybe i'll stay up late tonight.
and i'll fall asleep during CNY performance tmr.
:D
V day's coming!
we (class) were betting on the number of roses allicia will get.
haha.
i say 10.
9 from mr rose.
1 from mr zhang.
maybe more?
haha.
no idea.
marcus said he'll send me a flower through the inter college thing.
bet he didn't really mean it.
he always don't.
boo.



CNY! CNY!
three cheers!

went for my first gu zheng practice today!
it was....
BAD.
haha.
i can't deceive myself anymore.
music is SO not my thing.
i walked into the practice room.
a gush of cheena air embraced me.
AHHHHHHHH.
okay fine.
MAYBE i could try to live with cheenaism.
but when i actually ATTEMPTED a piece they gave...
i actually RECONSIDERED badminton.
wow.
the POWER of gu zheng.
simply amazing.
i didn't return them the stack of scores though.
it'll be rude if i did.
but i think it'll only serve as rough papers for math.
don't think i'm going back.
but the conductor's super nice.
haha.
maybe God is trying to tell me i should join badminton.
cos i met the badminton ppl after gu zheng.
haha.
and they ENCOURAGED me to join them for training next mon.
they seemed SO friendly.
promised a slightly more relaxed training.
i hope they'll keep their promise.
if only the badminton coach was nicer.
i'm feeling extremely crazy now.
LIKE WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU THINKING?!
i seriously don't know.
i'm like cranky la.
homework time.





need peace in my heart.

just came back from my cousin's wedding dinner.
like FINALLY someone's getting married!!
i've been waiting for a million years!!
:D
great food.
great wine.
great fun.
we camwhored too!!!


my brother and i.
already camwhoring on the way there.
:D



jerina and i.



today was bad.
bad.
bad.
bad.
had PE in the morning.
it totally spoiled the whole day.
i was SUPER tired.
dozed off for almost every lesson after that.
came home and took a BIG FAT NAP.
i'm still feeling sleepy though.
:D
fortunately the weekends are nearing!!!
probably marks more shopping!
YAY!
even better....
CNY IS COMING SOON!!!
three cheers!
that means more fun and celebration.
:D
oh.
by the way.
i've thought of yet ANOTHER cca.
guess...
guess...
guess...
nah.
i bet none of you got it.
GU ZHENG!!
haha.
so out of point right?
oh please.
since when have i been 'in' of point?
haha.
it's so exciting.
i feel so random!!
:D
super long day tmr.
with BOTH econs lecture and tutorial.
SO COOL.
like my FAVOURITE subject.
to make the day even more EXCITING
i've got double period GP!!!
YAY!!
uh.
as if.

I'M SUPER SLEEPY!!!
fortunately school starts later tmr.
get to sleep a little tiny bit more.
but there's PE tmr!
*horrors*
was dozing off during econs lecture today.
i TRIED to stay awake k!!
but OBVIOUSLY failed.
econs tutorial was no better.
chem was bad too.
i'm totally clueless about electronic configuration.
and the teacher asked questions today!!
everyone had to answer at least one question.
of course...
i didn't die la.
haha.
i've got GREAT smoking skills.
smoked through it.
:D
i've got to do GP.
:(
and i STILL don't know what to do for it.
HOW ON EARTH DO YOU DO A FACTSHEET??!
oh wells.
i may just end up stuck in the library again.
:(
stupid nerd.
by the way.
the librarian isn't very nice.
haha.




I NEED SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


PE was BAD.
ran 10 rounds.
hmmmm.
maybe nine.
think the teacher counted wrongly.
:D
but that's bad enough!!!
:(
practically died.
and allicia actually said she'll run at the back with me.
being such a LOYAL and FAITHFUL friend
she totally pangsehed me after a few rounds.
allicia.
I TOTALLY LOVE YOU.
haha.
anyway
hope mr menon will be more COMPASSIONATE on thurs.
woo!!
i wore the VS badge today!
borrowed it from wayne.
maybe we should switch uniforms the next time yea.
:D
it'll be SO COOL.
i'm sure my polka dots will look FLATTERING on him.
:D
haha so lame.
anyway.
had bio pop quiz today.
it made me feel super dumb.
:(
mr low (if you see this)...
SOS!!!
JC bio is bad....
:(
oh ya.
and i still don't get chem.
that means i can't do my tutorials!!!
:(
obviously still clueless bout econs.
it's really difficult trying to decipher mrs poon's alien language and stay awake at the same time.
AND THERE'S ECONS TMR!!!
sobs.
both lecture and tutorial.
boo.
no fun.




off to do homework.
i love homework!
i love homework!
i love homework!
okay.
self denial isn't working down here.
:(


i tried psychoing monks to come NJ last night!
and OBVIOUSLY what i said made sense.
:D
but she didn't change her mind in the end.
:(
MONKS!!!
I'LL MISS YOU!!!!!!
*sobs*
oh wells.
i just woke up from a nap.
still feeling super sleepy.
was almost dying during econs.
chem was bad too.
totally didn't understand what the EXCITED teacher was talking bout.
and so i spaced out...
in that little ORBITAL of mine.
by the way
some ppl think i'm mixed.
do i NOT look chinese?!
i'm so CHEENA.
haha.
hmmm.
maybe not.
i don't wear purple trackpants.
haha.
mi jie was totally convinced when i told her i was a quarter indian.
totally amusing.
:D

oh ya.
weiwey.
if you're still visiting my dear dear lalaland blog
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
erm.
it was yesterday.
right?
:D

taking a break from STOOPID math.
have FOUR constants to solve from FOUR equations.
my brain is fried.
anyway.
my tuition teacher bought me a GUESS wallet!!!!
SCREAMS!!!
so cool!!!
but...
i don't think i'll use it.
haha.
it's not very ME.
fine.
i'm showing off.
this is my blog.
CANNOT SHOW OFF AH?
haha.
kidding la.
i'm still wondering whether to take econs not.
my brother says econs is logical.
oh wells.
maybe that's why i don't understand the lecturer's alien language.
no.
i think mrs poon's worse la.
i'm always clueless during lessons.
ah.
no wonder i'm her BELOVED econs rep.
:D
PROUD TO BE.
but everyone's been saying things like
-chinese is useless
-econs is useful
-GSC is so cheena(??!! like you don't speak chinese ah?!)
-3H2 and 2H1 will be super taxing.
i don't know la.
maybe i should put in an effort for econs first.
wait.
how to if i'm completely clueless??!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
forget it.
dinner time.
the food beckons.
that's more important.
haha.




YAY!
i packed my room.
and that's something really hard to come by.
mommy must be really proud!
haha.
lame.
went out for dinner with marcus.
ate at crystal jade and had ice cream at cold rock.
yum yum.
talked a whole load of crap.
super full now.
i haven't done my homework.
and i really don't know what to do.
esp econs.
i don't feel like doing la.
feel like changing combi.
but my econs teacher is mrs poon(VP)!!!!
can't imagine her monstrous eyes staring at me.
maybe she'll make me stand outside the class.
wow!
then i'll be an OUTSTANDING student.
haha.
so lame.
then i've got GP too.
totally forgot what the teacher said.
i need to pop more gingko pills.
oh.
i hope NJ has a second orientation.
:D




wouldn't want the fun to end.

with all that joy and fun yesterday
i couldn't help but relax today.
:D
woke up close to mid day.
then went shopping!
bought a new bag and a new pair of shoes!!!
so exciting.
i totally LOVE them!
:D:D
then brought my grandma for check up.
it was the super cute and funny doctor again!!!
he's this middle age guy with a cute and round baby face.
the funniest part is the way he converses with my grandma.
he speaks hokkien with an angmoh accent!!!
haha.
super cute k.
although i'm not extremely fluent in hokkien
i must say his hokkien really sucks.
Oops.
haha.
:D
anyway.
i haven't done my JAE application!!!
*gasps*
i seriously don't know what to fill in for the other 11 slots.
but i'm sure RJ and HC will be the last few.
:D
it's so fun to put super good schools as the last few choices!
:D
fine.
lame.




it's now back to square one.

YAY!
i get to stay in NJ!
it's all that matters.
i'm contented.
:D
my phone was cranky at the most crucial time!!!
like when you wanna call out or when ppl wanna get you
you get an 'ERROR IN CONNECTION'??!!!
fortunately mr chua's 'physics hand' revived it!
today was such a drama mama day.
my weak heart almost couldn't take it.
haha.
oh my goodness la.
everything doesn't seem real enough.
oh.
my bro just called from camp!
awwwwww....
:D





trust in the Lord with all your heart
lean not on your own understanding
in all your ways acknowledge Him
and He will make your paths straight.

i'm super restless now.
how?
watch tv.
listen to music.
no la.
just cry.

badminton makes me depressed.
:(
it was a bad bad day at training.
the coach came down.
HE'S SUPER MEAN!!!!!!!
i totally can't stand him.
stupid big mass of fats and muscle.
fortunately i left early!
so i skipped PT.
:D
but i still don't like the coach.
haha.
ah.
might as well though.
gives me yet another reason to quit badminton.
:D
my whole body's feeling soft now!
:(
think i might not be able to get out of bed tmr morning.
and that my butt and thighs will hurt extremely much.
OH YA!!!!!!
there's PE tmr.
:(
will mr mannon accept the excuse that my butt is sore and i can't run?
i guess not.
i'm sooooooooooooooo sleepy.
but i've still got homework to complete!
:(:(
ah.
my eyelids need toothpicks.






yawns.
collapse.
snores.

i was soooooooooooo tired yesterday.

I'M DEAD BEAT!
had ex OG02 outing again today!
met allicia a little earlier than the meeting time to shop.
we bought many pairs of earrings!
pretty.
we were supposed to eat at pasta mania.
but it was stuffy and crowded there.
so we ate at NYDC!
:D
ordered spaghetti.
it was rated "WOW!"
but it tasted quite normal.
pasta sauce was actually quite sour.
so sin lin and i started adding sugar to our food.
haha.
i bet elvin and wayne were amused.
didn't get to eat mudpie.
didn't get to eat secret recipe's desserts.
didn't get to eat haagen daz ice cream.
so disappointing.
:(
then we headed down to esplanade's rooftop terrace to play games.
was quite sian la.
haha.
but still had that little bit of fun with them.
did forfeit and dares and stuff.
the girls had quite a bit of fun when we walked from esplanade to the mrt.
haha.
secret.
:D
yawns.
i'm super tired now.
snores.







off to lalaland.


although i skipped training yesterday...
THERE WAS TRAINING TODAY!!!
:(
but at least i chose the right day to skip.
heard the coach came down yesterday
and PT was simply crazy.
today was slack.
:D
firstly cos i went late,
and secondly cos i left early
which means skipping warm up rounds and PT!!!
YAY!!!
:D:D
oh ya.
S09 playing 'angel and mortal' with our senior class.
my mortal happens to be a guy.
and surprisingly he replied my letter.
well guys don't usually do such stuffs yea?
and he gave me a packet of petite brunch!
:D:D
which i happily ate during math lecture.
but it made my fingers smell of chicken for the whole day though.
haha.
econs lecture further encouraged me to drop econs.
IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORING.
i totally fell asleep.
haha.
well at least i tried to stay awake.
:D
OG dinner tmr!!!
so exciting.
:D:D
hope many ppl will turn up.




learning to love partial fractions and aldehydes.


I SURVIVED PE!!!!!!!!!!
we ran 2km.
AND I DIDN'T DIE!!!!!!!!
three cheers!
:D
but i was so tired after that.
almost died during chem lecture.
fortunately i had a number of hershey's nuggets to keep me awake.
:D
*cough cough*
NOT FEELING WELL.
so i didn't go for training.
haha
went back to st. marg's.
finally we got to see most of the teachers.
got quite valuable advice and stuff.
don't think i'll be able to return soo often any more.
well unless i choose to ACCIDENTALLY FORGET bout trainings.
:D



tutorials, tutorials, tutorials.
I LOVE YOU!
man.
this is self denial.
haha.

today wasn't as bad as expected.
was dying during econs lecture though.
close to nodding away.
haha.
tutorials were not bad.
love our math teacher.
mr neo.
we call him neopets.
:D
econs wasn't as nice.
teacher happens to be a vice principal.
SERIOUSLY.
and i was saboed to be econs rep.
EXTRA SERIOUSLY.
:(
don't even like econs la.
shouldn't have agreed at all.
:(:(
moreover i don't think i wanna take econs after JAE.
STUPID SHANDY.
i've been making many decisions i think i'll regret afterwards.
:(
WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway
today's allicia's birthday!
so being as sweet as OG02 can get...
we celebrated it for her!
:D

hopefully there'll be another OG outing this sat.
:D
oh wells.
time to do tutorials.
oh ya!
being a pure-blood singaporean
i cannot forget to complain.
:D
THERE'S PE TMR!!!!!
THERE'S BADMINTON AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!
*gasps*
*faints*
*dies*




in a world of my own.


there was only one lecture today.
but it was one of the longest days i've had in NJ.
math lecture was BAD.
probably didn't get 90% of it.
i feel super stupid.
:(
lessons start proper as of tmr.
boo.
no more fun and games i bet!
:(:(
since it was the last day of fun, i went SHOPPING today!
:D
anyway
badminton has really killed shandy.
i'm aching all over!!!!
:(
feels terrible.
another reason to not like badminton.
oh wells.
hope i won't feel extremely stupid again tmr.
:(




fallen from grace.

I'M IN PAIN.
badminton 'trials' SUDDENLY became badminton 'training'
super tiring.
*sobs*
i think i get really depressed when i'm on court.
and i feel kinda pressurized to join them
although they make it sound so "it's okay la"
bet it isn't.
i was suffering and dying in the hall.
a pity there wasn't a knight in shiny armor to come save me.
haha.
no one to save the poor damsel in distress.
:(
and i left at 8.
SERIOUSLY.
they were still training la.
according to the captain, it was gonna be PT next.
walking out of the hall and through the almost pitch black field made me feel WORSE.
POOR SHANDY.
haha.
enough of complaining.
on a BRIGHTER note
THERE WAS EX OG 02 OUTING TODAY!!!!!!!!!
three cheers!
ate macs at serene.
played games and stuff.
like the 'finger game'
haha
whatever they call it.
all the dirty little secrets were exposed!
especially the guys!
like some of them actually watch porn and stuff.
funny.
amazing stuff guys say.
utterly amusing.
:D
can't wait for another outing.
:D:D
and i wanna complain again!
there's only math lecture tmr.
like what am i gonna do with my life tmr?!!



fine.
i'm complaining again.
isn't it just UNIQUELY SINGAPORE?
:D


LECTURES START TMR!!!
well the whole world knows shandy has a SUPER short attention span.
SNORES.
yes.
i'm quite convinced lectures will only shorten them.
:D
I WILL PULL THROUGH!!!
hopefully.
:D
i've got huge breaks in between lectures tmr.
to make things worse
lectures end at 11.40.
side gate opens at 1pm.
badminton trials are from 5 to 7.
seriously.
i'll just be wasting my life in school tmr.
and badminton trials will last for TWO HOURS.
I SENSE EVIL!!!!!!
got a feeling it's not gonna be just whacking a few shuttles on court.
moreover
NJ has a HUGE track (unlike SM's pathetic one)
so maybe we'll run.
and obviously i'll faint and die.
the last time i had training was almost 7 months ago!
and the last time i SERIOUSLY trained was maybe more than a year ago.
this totally means a SUPER POOR stamina.
:(
actually.
i'm quite okay with not getting into badminton.
:D
haha.
sorry amelia!
don't worry.
shandy still loves you!




COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN.
duh.
i'm Singaporean.
:D

went tony romas for dinner today to celebrate mom's birthday.
it's been almost a million years since i've eaten there.
food remains fabulous!
love the ribs.
and the corn.
:D:D
just received the photos of ex OG02 outing from ting wei.
can't wait for the next ex OG02 outing!
:D
there's Aqua house outing next sat.
SIAN.
haha.
i must be the most ENTHUSIASTIC member in Aqua.
Bryan must really ADORE me.
WAHAHAHAHA.
okay.
shandy is drunk.
by the way
some of my classmates bought me a can of Jolly Shandy yesterday!
sooooooooooooooo SWEET.
:D
but it think they just bought it for fun.
haha.
bible study tmr.
obviously i haven't done my homework.
DUH!
:D:D:D




i think i'll miss orientation.
awwwwwwwwwwwww.

AWWWWWWWWW....
last day of orientation!
boohoo!
anyway.
we had war games in the morning!
it was quite fun la.
but the highlight of the day was campfire and dance party!
a pity it rained.
:(
no campfire.
but the dance party rocked the whole school.
:D
had fun at the dance party for a while.
but it started to get really sian and noisy.
moreover some ppl were dancing SCANDALOUSLY and stuff.
boo.
so my OG decided to play BALL in the canteen!
yay!
quite fun la.
there were just a million crashers today at NJ.
stupid crashers.
anyway....
LECTURES START ON MON!!
*gasps*
oh wells.
was thinking of sitting in for a physics lecture.
but there aren't any H1 phy lectures next week!
to make things worse
H2 phy's happening at the same time as bio!!!
boo.
maybe i'll just get some nice person to lend me notes and teach me!
well that's if there's such a nice person.
and provided i don't fall asleep.
:D
pretty please??
:D

mass dance today was MUCH better than the previous.
danced with a stupid IP1 the last time.
arrogant indian scholar.
boo you!
ming han partnered me today.
he made mass dance a little more interesting than usual.
:D
then had intra clan games.
okay only la.
got quite sian halfway.
the inter clan dance competition was the most sian one la.
but wayne and dian feng danced!
i so didn't expect that!
was laughing like mad with allicia.
then i stoned.........................
WAR GAMES TMR!!!!!!!!!
marks the last day of orientation.
well it's sort of a love-hate thing.
over-orientation can get quite sian.
but i dread lessons and lectures!
oh wells.
i feel like crashing physics lectures.
:D
and general studies in chinese (if they have one!)
and i'm still not sure if i should join badminton.
amelia!!!
how????!!!!
:(
all packed and ready for tmr!
my bag is filled with clothes.
i feel like an aunty.
haha.



we've got the lion on our side!
ROAR!

had The Quest today.
EXTREMELY TIRING.
:(
*faints*
not exactly fun and stuff.
two words to describe it.
OKAY LA.
but....
ex OG 02 dinner was fun!
it's when you lose something then you find out how much you really appreciate it.
and i do miss ex OG02!
:D
AMMAR!!!!
OG DINNER WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOO FUN!
:p
A PITY YOU DIDN'T COME!
hopefully there'll be another ex OG02 outing soon.
:D
the 'bt timah schools fellowship' yesterday was BAD.
why?
cos charlene pang sehed me!!!!!!!!
and all i'm left with is a bunch of DUMB hwa chong ppl.
so what did we talk about?
HWA CHONG OF COURSE!
like it was soooooooooooooooo interesting.
ezra, alena and jethro.
if you ever see this,
YES I'M COMPLAINING!!!!!!!!
if it's only the three of you, don't EVER ask me to turn up.
hwa chong big deal ah?!
boo.
anyway.
got a feeling tmr's gonna be a sian day.
sian sian sian sian.
yawns.
i'm going to LALALAND!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee.
nites.
fortunately school starts late tmr.
:D
SLEEP IN!!!!!!!

regrouped today.
08S09!
ONLY 4 GUYS IN MY CLASS!
there's a serious guy famine man!
anyway that's not the point.
but this group's not very enthu as well.
although the gang is HYPER enthu.
AQUA!
regrouping only makes me miss my old OG.
:(
OG 02!!!!!!
OG dinner this wed.
hope it'll be fun fun fun!
station games tmr too.
hope there'll be a sudden increase in enthusiasm!
which i highly doubt though.
:(
anyway.
i think i'm starting to regret taking BCME.
hmmmmm.
i should just TRY first.
not very confident it'll turn out well though.
:(



prayer.

cut my darling hair today!
then went for aunty mei's subway opening at thomson plaza.
shopped with joy around there too.
:D
went to serene to eat island creamery!
guess who i saw???!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH.
erm ya.
darren!!!!
my mt ophir group leader!
yay.
thought i'll never see them again.
:D
received some pics of friday's dinner and games from my OGL.
quite funny.
:D
although my OG's not very enthu and stuff...
I THINK I'LL STILL MISS THEM!
:(
hope next week will be more fun!


GLORY, GLORY, GLORY NJ!

shandy hasn't posted for a LONG LONG LONG time.
NJC!!!!!!
okay la.
quite fun.
esp today.
played games like 'elope', 'blow wind blow' etc.
really funny.
NJ isnt as mugger as ppl make it out to be.
at least not for orientation.
quite satisfied with the orientation package.
stupid weiwey asked me on the second day if we started studying already.
NO WEIWEY!
we play more than SA!
YAY!
made some new friends today.
like ammar, jit sheng, chin meng and jeffery.
jit sheng shw
but there was still loads of shyness and silence everywhere.
:(
changing OGs next week anyway.
hope there'll be fun ppl who TALK.
:D
BMCE!
don't know if i'll regret taking this combi though.
econs seems difficult.
well i guess nothing is really easy in JC.
:(
mass dance is difficult.
stupid elvin(dance partner) keeps laughing at me.
pooooooooi.
stupid toot.
kidding la.

i've got the NATIONAL DREAM.
haha.

brought camera again to Pat's schoolhouse!
which means...
more pics!


what good children...
praying even in the playground!
well, as if!
it's pokemon cards they're looking at!


see, evidence!


adorable, huh?



PHOTOS!!!
woohoo!!!!!!!


work starts again tmr!
hopefully it turns out well.
let's just try to be positive.
:D
had a week's break.
three more days.
hope they'll be golden ones.
guess i'll miss the kids LOADS.
i'll be all alone with the kids tmr!
both their teachers are on leave.
full day tmr.
the kids call me everything but ms shandy!
:(
aunty, uncle, hong hong(?!)
CREATIVE kids huh.
but extremely adorable.
hope to take pictures of them tmr!
YAY!


super tired.
finished the whole of Lovers.
the ending sucks quite a bit.
and i realised korean dramas are getting more R rated.
another quite fun day at Pat's schoolhouse.
did full day today.
played with the toddlers.
and like yesterday, they were climbing all over me.
i'm starting to like dylan lester.
poor boy who gets teased cos he's real hairy.
one kid actually called him "hairy potter"!
think that's the reason why he's quite a loner.
easily agitated.
but a very nice boy in fact.
saw him cuddling his 4 year old brother.
they looked so cute together!
i didn't think they were brothers!
you see...
evan isn't very hairy.
haha.
but they still look lovely and loving.
ate steam boat today.
super full.
super loads of msg.
haha.
yawns.
haven't been sleeping well.
tired.
goodnite world.

the kids weren't as angelic today.
:(
gave me quite a headache.
dylan the mini kungfu master cried.
:(:(
but nevertheless they were a fun bunch.
my darling wesley didn't come though.
anyway, i overheard something real interesting today.
the kids were talking during playtime...
may: izaac, you molest me before right?
izaac: ....(thinks)....(scratches head and thinks again) no i didn't.
may: you did! you touch my backside before. you don't believe you ask yi siang.
yi siang! he molest me before right?
yi siang: ...(thinks) ya... (thinks again) but it's okay what.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i'm gonna have a hard time tmr.
haven't gone through anthem and pledge.
and i've got to sort out the 'rush hour'(game) cars that they totally messed up.
:(


first day at work!
wasn't as bad as expected.
quite fun to be exact.
there was this boy called wesley.
fair and chubby. (i sound like a wicked witch here. hehe)
"so wesley, what do you like to do?"
"i like to fart"
"what?! .... why?"
"because it's smelly"
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
innocence.
the kids were randomly paired and had to write a letter to their partner.
and wesley was my partner!
the letter writes...
"whatever how to spell my partner's name,
i want a new brain from you,
and a new body"
then the back of the letter was a drawing of me giving him and brain and body.
haha.
nonsense kid.
but i guess that's part of childhood.
gonna teach them national anthem and pledge tmr.
IMPOSSIBLE.
even teacher shandy doesn't know (and doesn't really care) much bout them.
:(
okays.
let's just hope this will be a fun way to earn shopping funds!

PANIC!!!
gonna start work tmr.
pat's schoolhouse at mt sinai.
like where on earth is it??!
i was still fretting a while ago.
but lovely and nice graceleung has kindly offered to bring me there tmr.
hugs and kisses to her!
but it's still scary.
OH NO!
pressurizing.
KIDS!!!
*gasp*
went with bel and dai yan for the training today.
the lady made it sound so simple!
obviously for her!
she's experienced.
what if the kids don't listen?
what if the kids eat something wrong and fall ill?
and the place is at holland!
i guess i'll be expecting a whole load of rich kids.
heard the school fees exceeds a thousand a month or something.
spoilt maybe?
don't really know.
oh wells.
tmr shall worry for itself.
watched Lovers the whole day today.
was cutting stickers for tmr at the same time.
wanted to give sweets at first though.
but after thousands of mr low's lessons saying that even a PEANUT could kill
i thought probably stickers would be safer.
i actually forgot to watch Romantic Princess today.
scatterbrain.

feeling oh so blue.

yet another boring week.
went to marcus's house to eat sushi yesterday.
watched eye 10 too.
the show was damn funny.
erm.
maybe it was just us.
we were laughing at the scary scary parts.
then watched No Reservations.
sucky show in my opinion.
fortunately didn't waste money at the cinemas watching it.
as for today
wasted my life away by...
watching coffee prince
reading harry potter
watching coffee prince again.
it's a love-hate thing towards such a lifestyle.
sloth.
wednesday was more fufilling.
went shopping with monkey.
bought many many stuffs.
tmr seems like a sian day again.
ameliakoh hasn't informed me bout badminton tmr.
hint hint.
and mommy tried to hoax me to join her cell grp for bowling.
"shandy... mommy bring you go out tmr"
"oh really? where?"
"but you must wake up very early"
"oh sure. just don't ask me to go bowling"
"ya. i wanted to"
"so not. it's like lao lang yi (old folks home) there"
and so i walked away....
totally reminds me of childhood days.
when you meet older ppl
you have to act guai and always smile like an idiot :D
and they go touching your head
rubbing your cheeks.
eeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwww.
ah.
seems like another day of korean dramas+harry potter+sweet afternoon naps

I LIKE PINK!

REVIVE!!!!!!!

yes.
shandy shall revive her blog!!!
*claps*
O LEVELS ARE OVER!
fine.
i'm a little adagio.
but who cares?!
IT'S OVER!
rejoice with me!!
yay!
dance on your toes
swing your arms in freedom!
fly away!

what has shandy been up to:
1)watching dramas
2)shopping
3)sleeping
4)watching movies

watching dramas:
watched forensic heroes and nodame cantabile
forensic heroes is just SO GOOD.
nodame cantabile is quite lame.
but oh wells.
shandy likes lame stuffs.
:D

shopping:
went shopping that day.
bought a new bag from charles and keith.
saw it in the summer catalouge in around june.
but when i wanted to get it....
THEY WERE OUT OF STOCK!!
but it's destined to be mine....
i FINALLY got it.
:D

sleeping:
stupid O levels has caused me to sleep really little.
my eye bags are scary!
and i've been so used to sleeping for 7 hrs.